Stress
Sunday, April 13, 200811:00 AM
STRESS
My finals starts on Monday (14.4.08). And it's really really important this time. I NEED to do well. Can't tell why, but I just need to. Another thing is(one of the reason), I must make sure that I've passed all the papers because that's the requirement to move on to the third year of my degree.
Stress.Stress.Stress. :(
Been almost going insane from thinking about so many stuff lately : Exam, him, where I'm going, what subjects should I take for my 3rd year, what's the right thing to do, yadda yadda and the list goes on and on and on. I need to get away. I need to go to some mountain and scream my lungs out. I need to stab someone and laugh in front of his corpse and proceed to burn it and dump it into the sewers where I'd laugh some more. No, wait. This is kinda getting too far. *smacks myself*
However, thank God, there's a good friend by the name Ho Gene to take my mind of things. Thanks! You never fail to make me laugh. hehe. :)
You see, I'm not as bad as you think I am! I would say good things about people whom I think deserves it. ;)
And to other guys, when I say I am single it does not mean I am available. I don't think I'm ready for "dates" or whatever that leads to a relationship right now. I'm gonna take my time and wait for that one person who can make me happy for the rest of my life to come to me. I don't believe in going on dates with various guys because, I don't know, I just don't think it's as fun as people claim it to be. Plus, the chances of me getting a boyfriend that lasts which came from a random date is very very slim. I don't think I'd fall in love that easily. Not after what's happened.... and all the failed relationships I've experienced so far.
My close girl friends can see that, I'm the kinda girl who's quite (quite only.. okay) brutal towards guys who randomly approach me. It's not because that I don't like you, I just.....I just.........developed that hatred towards guys like that. It's funny cuz now, I am able to pick out a needle from a haystack. Past experiences really do help. :) That is why, I only talk to certain guys whom I think are worth talking to.
Time to start studying again!
I'm so hardworking I can't believe myself. lol.
Somebody pinch me.
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