While purchasing my usual breakfast at the cafeteria today, the lady who owns the place told me "aiyoo..you got so many admirers la.."
I was kinda stunned and blurred.
Didn't know what to reply. Instead, I said "Your mee goreng is very nice. I like it. hehe" (what-the-hell, that's so out of the topic)
She replied : oh! You should tell my chef that. He admires you too. *smile smile*

Me : *laughs* um, I gotta go..haha..bye bye~
She: Cya! you should come more often for lunch!

I feel like I'm back in high school because those guys who are supposed to be old-er looks so shy!! hahahaha X)))

:: Supposed to blog about this some time ago:: =)

Met up with Nadia and Annie for some lepak-ing session. I met them during their lunch time from 12-2pm...went to Tomoe (opposite SJMC) for lunch because Nadia said she wanted Unagi.


In the picture above, the conversation between her and the waitress was:
Nadia : I'll take the Unagi set..
Waitress : *writes down the order*
Nadia : Umm....I think I wanna change to Chicken Katsu Curry
Waitress : *corrects the order*
Nadia : On second thought, I think I'll just take the Unagi..hehe...
Waitress : *corrects the order again* (I think she was frustrated by then. hahaha)

Nadia is so fickle minded. tsk. tsk. =/

Nad was sitting on the opposite side. It was so troublesome for me to get off my seat to take a picture with her, which is why most of the pictures are pictures of me and Annie. hahaha. Yes, I'm a very lazy bumm. Can't deny that. =/

Picture of Annie "ghost-ing". haha X)

Around 4pm after their class, I picked them up from college again to head off for The curve. Wanted to check out some bikini's there. hehe.
Drove into the Cineplex and realised that it was pretty full. Annie pointed to a pink parking lot with the sign "Single Female Drivers Only". But you know what, us being the "true" Malaysian, decided to cheat. Anyway..we're all girls, it's dangerous for us to park too far away. teehee. Me and Annie was like "Nadia please move the sign". hahaha. :)

walked around for a bit and decided to try Bubba Gump just 'cause it looks cool. Yes, we judge a restaraunt based on its appearance on the outside. :p


Nadia ordered some ice-cream on a really large hard cookie(cookie seriously damn hard, but Nadia managed to dig it out and it tasted really good with the ice-cream!) while Me and Annie ordered some shrimp something something and french fries. X)

The food was great! Would like to try the rest some other day.

Ohh..I must tell you people this..

See both the signs? One blue and one red? Before ordering, there's this guy who came and explain to us the usage of the signs. SOMEHOW, it registered in my brains as "Blue :waiter please come and Red : waiter don't come".
After finishing our food, my hands got itchy and I moved it from the blue sign to the red sign. All of a sudden this waiter pops out of no where and said "hi, can I help you??"
I said : er..no?..........
Then I realised that...........the red sign is supposed to be for the waiter to stop and serve you. Gosh. It was so embarassing. I didn't know! (actually, it's 'cause I didn't pay attention, so kids, do listen to people when they're explaining something and don't act smart like me ya?)
After the whole food eating, picture taking session at Bubba Gump, it was time to go home!
Cam-whored in the car.
Was supposed to make some funny faces but I ended up looking slightly retarded. Bah, whatever. =(

And this is supposed to be our "lanci" face. XD

Btw, Annie was telling me and Nadia "wanna go try and wax the public hair?"
Me and Nadia : ha? what? PUBLIC hair??Got such thing meh?
*after a few sec*
Me : .....pubic hair is it. HAHAHAHAHA

I love my bestest gfs!
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Yesterday, was a "family outing" day for me.
Went to The Pavillion in the evening and we tried the Michaelangelo's.
The food was superb and the cutlery was worth admiring. hahaha. =p

While waiting for the food..I noticed this particular picture (ignore my sister's head). Asked my mom "Is that a guy or a girl?"
Mom told me it's a guy.
I replied "Where's the dick?"
Mom " oh yaaa..how come don't have one?! They took away his man-hood!"
Sister : can still see abit abit ma..didn't photoshop properly. hahahah

I tell you, Malaysia is a destroyer of all nude art. =/

After dinner, we walked around again..and..I saw..rings!
I love rings! (because my dad influenced me. He's got all types of rings and all types of stones on the rings as well. I think he could start a ring shop)

I kept picking and picking and picking. Sister was getting soo annoyed but when I choose my ring I have to REALLY choose okay. It's like a matter of life and death.
I wanted a shiny one. The kinda ring that would flicker and shine from my hand. I already have the plain shiny rock on a ring so I had to get something unusual but shiny at the same time. hehe.



Finally I chose this. It was a new arrival and it has a lifetime guarantee! (Annie I know what you are thinking. My "Golla" right. hahaha) I swear the ring looks more shinier in real life than it does in pictures. =D

Come to think of it, my dad influcned me on rings and watches while my mom influenced me on shoes, bags and clothes! So, I guess the shopping behaviour isn't entirely my fault??? I'm just following the example. hehehehe. ;p

HOWEVER, I must clarify this. I may love to shop, but I only shop under the circumstances of having the money to shop. If my family happens to be tight in the finance area, I'm still alright with it. Although I may be abit heartbroken when I'm not able to buy something I like, I wouldn't die without shopping. I do have other free fun stuff to do...Like, for the first time ever.. I followed bb to catch some real live earth worms as a fishing bait! =) So there, I pretty much consider myself quite a well balanced person. *laughs*

Hmm..this is quite a long post.
That's all for today.. Have a great week ahead everyone! =)

And, I have no idea why are the fonts so weird. Some big, some small. zzzz
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all of a sudden I feel like listening to all these rock-ish songs.
Given Up reminds me of Singapore...
I miss......................aaaAaaAhhHhh!

Hoobastank-"The Reason"

I'm not a perfect person..
There's many things I wish I didn't do..
But I continue learning..
I never meant to do those things to you..
And so I have to say before I go..
That I just want you to know..

I've found out a reason for me..
To change who I used to be..
A reason to start over new..
and the reason is you..

I'm sorry that I hurt you..
It's something I must live with everyday..
And all the pain I put you through..
I wish that I could take it all away..
And be the one who catches all your tears..
Thats why i need you to hear..

I've found out a reason for me..
To change who I used to be..
A reason to start over new..
and the reason is You..

and the reason is You [x3]

I'm not a perfect person..
I never meant to do those things to you..
And so I have to say before I go..
That I just want you to know..

I've found out a reason for me..
To change who I used to be..
A reason to start over new..
and the reason is you..

I've found a reason to show..
A side of me you didn't know..
A reason for all that I do..
And the reason is you..

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Yellowcard - Only One

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

(Chorus)
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

(Chorus)
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

(Music Intro)


Here I go, so dishonestly leave a note for you my only one, and i no you can see right through me so let me go and you will find someone
(Chorus)
My only onex3
you are my only one
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Lovely songsss~~ been lovin' them since 2005/06 during my Foundation year in Metropolitan College. I like the way the singers sang their heart out for each song. It's just so "feeling"-full (no such word). Do you know what I mean?? =D

The lame stuff I do when I'm bored@work :

I was sooo bored at work today..I decided to test the desk phone because I've never tried sending a text message using a desk phone before (jakun). =/
Sat there and thought of who to disturb.......

.....

*poof* the name : Nadia appeared.

Sent her some "nice" message and she actually bought it!
The next thing I knew, my colleague got a call from some guy...after some checking, he asked me : who is Udaya........(full name here). And I was like "oh shit, that's my friend's bf" Whoopss. When she didn't reply I thought she didn't bother. Mana tauuu......X)

Another person I disturbed was bb. hahahaha. Shall not go into details. =p

I'm waaayyyy too free.

Oh! oh! I almost forgot! I actually googled the word "nerd" just to see what I'll get. Wiki's description made me laugh like an idiot to myself at the office. =/
It may be long, but it's worth the read! It certainly made my day.
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NERD

Nerd is a term often bearing a derogatory connotation or stereotype, that refers to a person who passionately pursues intellectual activities, esoteric knowledge, or other obscure interests that are age inappropriate rather than engaging in more social or popular activities. Therefore, a nerd is often excluded from physical activity and considered a loner by peers

Characteristics of a Nerd:

The stereotypical nerd is intelligent but socially and physically awkward. In film and television depictions, nerds are disproportionately white males with glasses, braces, acne and pants highly lift up.It has been suggested by some, such as linguist Mary Bucholtz, that being a nerd may be a state of being "hyperwhite" and rejecting African-American culture and slang that "cool" white children use.However, after the introduction of the Steve Urkel character on the television series Family Matters, nerds have been seen in all races and colors as well as more recently being a frequent young Asian male stereotype in North America.

They typically appear either to lack confidence or to be indifferent or oblivious to the negative perceptions held of them by others, with the result that they become frequent objects of scorn, ridicule, bullying, and social isolation. Some nerds show a pronounced interest in subjects which others tend to find dull or complex and difficult to comprehend, or overly mature for their age, especially topics related to science, disambiguation, mathematics and technology. On the opposite end of the spectrum, nerds may show an interest in activities that are viewed by their peers as immature for their age, such as trading cards, comic books, or role playing games such as Dungeons & Dragons and other things relating to fantasy and science fiction. They are also stereotyped for being obsessed with Star Trek, Star Wars, and other science fiction shows or movies. Nerds are often portrayed as unfit and either obese or very thin. Nerds are also sometimes portrayed as having symptoms of obsessive-compulsive disorder, such as by showing an extreme devotion to following rules.

Stereotypical nerd qualities have evolved in recent years, from awkwardness and social ostracism to a more widespread acceptance and sometimes even celebration of their abilities. This is largely attributable to the rise of the computer industry, which has allowed many "nerdy" people (most notably Bill Gates) to accumulate large fortunes and other measures of social prestige. Some measure of nerdiness is widely considered desirable, because it suggests a person who is intelligent, respectful, interesting, and able to earn a large salary. This evolution has dovetailed with waning emphasis on the social awkwardness of nerds, with more attention placed on their intelligence and academic enthusiasm.

And...Did you know?
That there was a movie entitled : Revenge of the Nerds ?
There's a genre of music called : Nerdcore ? (I wonder how does this sound like...gosh)

Last but not least...

One cannot be an authentic nerd by imitation alone; a nerd is an outsider and someone who is unable to follow trends. Popular culture is borrowing the concept and image of nerds in order to stand out as individuals.


*screams in terror and proceeds to roll on floor laughing*

::[Shall be blogging about my day out with the girls on the weekend, pictures galore~!]::

While I was waiting in the car, in front of the bank yesterday, a man tapped on the window asking me to move the car because he wanted to go out.

I was like "er...manual? I haven't driven a manual since my L"

But it's all OKAY because I still remembered how to use the clutches and all that 'tho.
So I hopped over to the driver's seat and gave it a try.
I had no idea WHY but I just couldn't press the blardie clutch. It's either the chair is too far or he made the clutch too tight! Couldn't push the gear in. Was cursing under my breath.

However, after some effort..... I managed to move the car, in the most embarassing way possible. Don't ask. =(

A few min later, bb came out laughing saying that he saw how I "moved" the car.
Wah..saw my embarassment and laugh sumore. Sad case.

But then again, I've done plenty of embarassing stuff in front of him....
I trip (ALOT, seriously damn alot), I spill stuff(anywhere, even at his home) and I'm like EXTRA clumsy when I'm trying not to be clumsy. yadda yadda.

Everyday I'll sit in the corner of my room asking myself the question.... "Whhhhyyyy?!??" =/

Emo-fied for no apparent reason?

**Update

I used to be able to stay at home for the whole week and I only had to go out for lunch or dinner 'bout 2 hours each once in awhile. I was able to chill at home without feeling bored and start thinkin' 'bout all the nonsensical worthless stuff. I was able to watch the tv all day or go online all day.

What happened to that home chiller? I kinda forgot how fun it was to stick at home doing nothing.

Take today for example (finally a day out of the many days which I said I would stay at home and sleep early) :

The moment I got home from work, I ate a few left over pizza from yesterday's lunch because I didn't feel like eating rice. Then, I watched the pirated dvd(it's a clear version, I hate watching pirated cinema version) of "Over Her Dead Body". After that, I begain roaming around the house thinking what to do. Finally decided to switch on my computer and come online. Watch a few episodes of That 70s Show and chatted with some people on msn. Became very very bored and depressed. One of my friend is going on a roadtrip and I'm all stuck with an internship. Talked to Annie about some relationship stuff and after an hour Nadia the pig sleeper came online and the 3 of us started talking 'bout alot of bull crap and I received a very shocking news I couldn't believe my eyes. I need to get it out of my head in order to sleep tonight. Gawd.
Now, I'm blogging this boring post.

There ya have it. My life at home.

Oh, and I'm not as "interesting" as some of you people may think I am. In fact, I'm a very boring person.

.....Would like to rent a place somewhere to live with friends. =(


I feel very emo when I don't go out. Why?!

Let me make it clear ONCE AND FOR ALL.

I get VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY SUPER ANNOYED and PISSED when I come online and people ask me this question : Never go out ah? / Never go pak tor? / How come you're at home?

LIKE WTF.
I wanna go online I'll be online. I wanna go out, I'll be out and if I wanna stay at home I WILL BE AT HOME.
It's pretty much NOTHING THAT CONCERNS YOU PEOPLE, THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!

THE NEXT TIME YOU IDIOTS ASK ME THIS QUESTION I WILL BLOCK AND DELETE YOU.

Few short updates!

A few days ago I bought this lovely bracelet from 1Utama (The Dotz : Rm70 only) and I'm sooo in love with it because it's so pretty and shiny!
AND it has my name on it. One and only..woohoo! =)


I lovveee unique stuff. Especially if it's engraved with my name! Oh, and I also have this liking for limited edition items. hehe. =p

Oh and a certain SOMEBODY bit my leg so hard I have a blue black now! This is the PROOFFF!! Bite me just because I pinched him. Bladdy slutty big bully..hmphs. Painnn!!! Gimmie back my fair blue-blackless thigh. ="(

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..The day before yesterday while I was in the car, my dad saw this red Peugeot and said that it's a nice car. I said "ya, I've liked that car since a long time ago" and when I looked closer, I saw my ex Nicholas in the car. So I told my dad, "hey, that's one of my ex". Dad said "how many ex bf do you have ah?" I said "I don't know. Don't ask, you just have to know a few that matters. haha" Started telling him about how we dated and how I used to hide dating behind his back because I didn't want him to know and told him "neh, that bottle of stars, he gave it" and my dad was like "ohh..okay, why you both break up?". I went blank. So I just told my dad.."he's a very nice guy and I don't know why I treated him so badly. It's most probably my fault our relationship went bad but what's passed is passed there's no use regretting, plus he's got a gf now which he's been with for years and I'm happy for him." -the end- (you ppl pls don't make up some crap stories in your mind kays, I've broken up with this guy for around 2 years so yeah, go figure)

Other than that, today my ex boss from the Digi & Sony Ericsson Roadshow decided to treat me for the TGIF which was promised last YEAR. Although he tried to clear his name, I'm still blacklisting him as an ffk-er. hahaha =p

K, that's all for now, I'm too lazy to type nicely/to sort out the posts. Probably one of the most rojak post ever. Deal with it!

p.s. = I've been getting replies of my posts in my Facebook and Friendster's inbox instead of comments on my blog itself. Tagboard too small is it? Should I add a comment function? But if I do add, would you ppl even comment on it or continue messaging my Facebook/Friendster account?? haha X))

p.p.s = I'm so addiced to the remixed version of Leavin'. Been re-playing it in the office like thousands of times..Usually I would prefer the original song but this remixed version is just superb! =D

Recently my maid constantly combs my dog's hair in such a way that it seems to have a "center parting" which makes my super cute dog look like a NERD.

Sooo my sister(Charissa) decided to use her super chun BM to talk to my maid.

"Sumii..lain kali jangan sikat dia punya rambut macam tu, kerana dia punya rambut nampak macam orang yang suka belajar."

Now tell me, is there a specific BM word for the word NERD or is my sister correct? hahahahaha X)))

A MIRACLE happened today.

This morning I received a few misscalls from Nadia..and then..I saw a message "v miss u so comin to ur house now. haha". I was like "whatt?" So I called her and found out that she was DRIVING. Oh my? After like, 1 year + of Nadia saying "I promise I will fetch youu" she finally did drive. WAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! Amazing-nye.

And she is one very reckless driver. Just look at her, sms-ing while driving. tsk tsk. =Pp

Our lives..were pretty much in danger. =/
When I say "our" I meant me and Annie. X)

Another proof of recless driving, she takes pictures while driving and the car next to us which was filled with dudes were looking at us. Doh, never seen people taking pictures in the car before?! Annie said "don't care lah, not like they're ever gonna see us again". So true. hehe

Sidenote : Although you may pass people whom you think you may not ever see again, DO NOT ever pick your nose while you're stopped at some red light because people may be able to remember THAT. I've seen this dude who's all dressed up in formal wear picking his nose like there's no tomorrow before, and trust me, I can still remember his face when I see it. lmao.

Me and Annieeeeee can take pictures freely because we are not driving.

I wasn't trying to distract Nadia from the road!

Me and Annie again. =))

Nadia actually drove us to SHAH ALAM..and we went to this Thai restaraunt to eat something because Annie was dying of hunger and I was dying of thirst. I have to say, we can really eat. Just the 3 of us..but we ordered as though it was for a family. hahas


Oh..and the picture of that computer is....indeed the computer which have gone through alot of hacking/stalking/gossip-ing online/secretly taking photos of people on webcam/whatever crimes you can think of which is done by Evil Nadia. hahaha

For the first time we lepak-ed around Nadia's houseee and I felt like sleeping cuz it was so quiet and nice. haha.

At this very moment, she's in the train on the top bunk going to Singapore for her uncle's funeral... =(

I know I shouldn't be saying this..But......
Have fun suffering in the small space in the train Nadia. NYAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! X))

My next door neighbour got robbed at knife point while she was opening her gate in the evening.

I just want to say : WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE. AND WHY ARE THESE PEOPLE TARGETTING THE AREA THAT I LIVE IN?!?!?!! DO WE LOOK LIKE WE HAVE ALOT OF MONEY AND CARS FOR YOU LOW-LIVES TO ROB?????

F ing ruining my peace.

Just a few months ago one of the houses got swiped clean of its valuables.
Snatch thieves are roaming around here like wolves
AND there are car robbers too. $)#@(*$)#@*$*@#$_#@$ (long string of curses here)

I FEEL SO MAD AT ALL THESE DESPERATE GOOD FOR NOTHING CREATURES!!!!

I feel like buying a large FIERCE dog for my front yard.

Young at heart =)))
Guess whoooo??!! Guess Whoooooooo (I'm feeling superr hyper today)

This dudeee (the poser), happens to be my dad. He's 51 today!! Believe or not. =DD

Happy Birthday to you~
Happy Birthday to you~
Happy Birthday dear Daddy~
Happy Birthday to uuuuuuu~~~
*throws confetti in the air, blows party whistle, pops balloons, and screams "woohooo you're more than half a centurian"!!* I love my Dad. ;)

Btw, in case you haven't noticed..he's a poser just like all of us. hahaha. I have a young at heart daddy! ;p

We had our dinner at Miyako, Sheraton today~
The food was..DELICIOUS. The setting/atmosphere/ambience/feel was really Japanese-y. I loved it.
Sooo..It's highly recommended by mua. =D

Pic of the restaraunt's interior (part of it) and our family picture with the sign board. hehehe X)



When there's a camera... :

Me and the stairs. I love winding stairs! It feels so princess-y. heh. ;p

Me..being a pig. =/

....what the hell rightt (I knoww what you people are thinking!)

I just can't help it. Taking pics of myself is like, my past time. Lame past time but it's better than nothing riteeee~~ ;)

Wellllll...actually there's moree but I think that'll be enough of uploads for now. I'm afraid y'all would get bored of my faceeee. Geezz. =/

Nitie nites!

p.s. : I miss uu, syg. :'(

I realised that my blog sounds soo friggin' sad and I thought I should kinda balance it out with something..happier. Wanna read about it? hehe. :)

For many many weeks I've been thinking..should I or should I not talk about my current relationship status.. because things are pretty complicated at the moment. Still not going into details about it...

But, you know what?..whatever it is, I just wanna express how happy I am now. =))

This..is to you. (you know who you are) =)

This particular person..was the ONLY person who could make me forget about everything. I know this because..I've tried going out with different people and I was just not as happy as I am with him. Everytime I was out with him, I would just feel so alive. Before this, I knew him.. but never really got to know him better 'till recently.

The funny thing is, I was so afraid of the feelings that I was starting to feel for him at the beginning that I began running back to my past. For the month or so when I made the decision to go back..I kept thinking about it..kept thinking about him. Everytime I saw him, I just wanted so much to reach out to him and be with him..and when he's there, the only person I'd see in the entire place would be him. Everything else was just a blur. I began thinking things like, "damn it Regina, you cannot have feelings for him because it will never be returned. Stop it already."

I guess fate would always have its way with you though. Because..after all that, I realised something. That I couldn't be with the past anymore...during the first few weeks of the break up..this person, had doubts because I may go back again since I did it once. However, I was VERY determined to prove him wrong on that. I wanna say that, of all the mistakes I've done, this is something I am sure I will not want to repeat because I have never ever felt so bad.

All the bits and pieces of my life began to fall back into place on 25th April when I actually knew how much he meant to me after a certain incident. I was SO SO afraid of losing him.

Honestly, I have never been so happy with anyone..Sometimes I'm so happy I feel like throwing confetti in the air and dancing around. X)

...and I've been dying to say that on my blog because..in case you didn't know, I'm a person who blogs about almost everything in my life because I want to keep the memories. =)


(just in case..if I ever happen to lose my memory or something one day, at least I would have this blog to remind me of all the stuff that I've been through. haha.)

So please don't point fingers and say things like "why la Regina must blog about almost everything in her life". The truth is, there are waayyy more stuff that I'm not blogging about. Everything I'm saying here, is just some surface memories which when I read, would dig up the deeper memories hidden within.


I can't believe I blogged 2 long posts in a day! *gives myself a pat in the back*

What?? It's called self motivation thank you very much. =Pp

For the past few weeks I've been going for the "relationship series" sermon at CHC and I found it really relevant to me. :)

I've learnt that women and men are different in SO many ways and it really made me think about my own behaviour while I'm in a relationship.

It is said that women can be emotional all of a sudden (even if there is no apparent reason) and could be triggered by almost anything while men thinks that it is highly impossible for someone to go into the emotional zone if there's nothing upsetting them. Sounds familiar? =/

I have to admit I am a very emotional person and I tend to think too much sometimes. At times I can be really happy and when something just strikes me, I'd go all quiet. It kinda hit me..that I shouldn't be that way because it's really unfair to the guy who did nothing wrong. :( Agreed? This shall be another reminder to myself : I choose to be happy! No more emo-ing Regina~!

Another important lesson to note: "True love is not just about falling in love but also staying in love".

Ever felt like you're in Utopia the first time you met a guy/girl whom you think is just sooo right for you?.. That when you're with them, everything is just perfect and you'd wish time would stand still so that you could just be there with them for eternity?..Everything about him/her is just perfect and all the flaws about them seems like nothing to you. You're willing to overlook everything and anything he/she does because you're floating on cloud 9...You're promise the stars, the heaven, the sun, the moon...yadda yadda..I'm sure you know what I mean.

Then..a few months down the road..these heavenly feelings seem to fade off and *boom* you're back on earth. Welcome home to reality people! You begin to see that "perfect" guy or girl of yours has that annoying habit of ................ (fill in the blanks yourself). You no longer go for romantic dates or have that particular "i love you baby", "no I love you more baby", "no I love you the most baby" kinda *spark*. This is where the test of your so called "I love you forever" relationship starts. Are you willing to overlook those flaws? Do you actually expect your partner to be handsome/beautiful/caring/supportive/perfect all the time? Let's face it, we're all humans and there is NONE who are perfect.

For me, a really happy relationship starts when the couple are able to be themselves with each other. There's no need for pretend and lies. There's no need to impress and you're able to have a great time even if it's just watching the tv at home or cooking a meal together. They are able to talk things out instead of shouting it out. The silences between the two of you wouldn't feel awkward at all.

My mom always told me, "If you and your bf are arguing almost everyday, it is an unhealthy relationship. You should either find a way to communicate better with each other or just end it. Because your partner is supposed to make you happy.. not the other way around." How true is that?? Girls/guys, if your partner is making you cry all the time, LEAVE before it's TOO LATE! Trust me, I know. If a person really loves you, they would try their best not to hurt you. There may be times they say or do things which un-intentionally hurt you..but none of that would be on purpose. Soo..please please please, don't ever believe a person when he/she says that "I lied because I love you". There is NO such thing.

One of my aunt made a wrong choice in marrying a man like that, and now..she's suffering for the rest of her life.. Because..it was too late. She always serves as a reminder to me..about how important it is to marry the right man. You see, he was the guy who went to disco's, karaoke's, drank and took drugs throughtout the courtship. In the past, many people tried to tell her..but she didn't listen. Now? I have a bastard who I'm forced to call my uncle and he's been doing so many things throughtout the marriage that's been hurting her so much.

So this part, is specially for you girls who were as stupid. If your guy is like THAT and you KNOW about it, just let it go. It's really not worth it. Some of my good guy friends tell me, they'd get so annoyed when a girl comes to them and tell them about their major problems with their bf (bf cheated, hit, shouted, humiliated them in public and etc)..yet, she doesn't want to leave him because she claims that she loves him too much.

I have to admit that girls can be too stupid and too blinded by love. And I wanna say sorry to those people whom I have not listened to in the past.

and.. I have to say.... that I was one of those stupid girls, but you know what? Everything works out for the better. Trust me when I say that.. you will be much much happier when you've finally taken up the courage to let everything go. Those feelings that you think are gone forever.. will eventually come knocking on your door the moment you're willing to throw all those past hurt away.. the feelings may be even stronger than before..because.. you would've learned how to appreciate a good person. =)

Now the question is...for those girls who are in a bad relationship right now: how hard do you wanna fall before you finally wake up????

That's all for today peopleeee.......Forgive me if there are any grammatical/spelling errors cuz I'm too lazy to check. Have a good day yeah? ;)

I knowww there's this summer splash blablabla beach party today and NO I wasn't there.
I'm not that happening to attend all these kinda rubbish event. ha-ha. ;)

Okay, honestly I would've loved to go if it was more exclusive. Cuz I don't really like the idea of me being squashed and pushed and wedged between all the sweaty teens while desperately trying to gasp for air in a so-called open area which is more like a vacum valley.

Or maybe it's just because I am getting older?!?!

=(

My gosh. I'm running out of ideas on what to blog about!

Anyway, here's some updates:

I'm getting more friends in Digi so a big YAY to that. At least I won't be THAT bored anymore. ;)

By the way, there's this thing about me. I do not like eating lunch alone. I'd only eat alone only if I'm in a bad mood or if I'm really really forced to be alone.

Soo..on the first week my biggest concern was : WHO the hell am I gonna have lunch with?? I don't wanna be a new loner in the office... :"(

I know most people in the office would be worrying 'bout due dates, quotas and all that. But for me the lunch issue is a really BIG thing okay. =/

By the way, I totally love being a girl okayy. The post before this was just a joke! I can't believe some of my guy friends actually fell for that. hahahaha. Don't message me on msn telling me all the good things 'bout being a girl cuz I knowww.. ;p

Oh, and I think Digi's totally cool because they're always having events! Just a few weeks ago they were celebrating some independance day of.....Sweeden, wait, was it Sweeden? I'm not really sure. I just knew it was some independance day of some country.

Next week they're having a futsal tournament...and... I am in the cheering squad..that means...I CAN GET OFF WORK EARLY!! WOOHOOOO!~~!!!! =DD

Like A Boy-Ciara

[Verse: 1]
Pull up your pants
(Just Like Em')
Take out the trash
(Just Like Em')
getting ya cash like em'
Fast like em'
Girl you outta act like ya dig
(What I'm talkin' bout')
Security codes on everything
Vibrate so your phone don't ever ring
(Joint Account)
And another one he don't know about

[Hook]
Wish we could switch up the roles
And I could be that...
Tell you I love you
But when you call I never get back
Would you ask them questions like me?...
Like where you be at?
Cause I'm out 4 in the morning
On the corna rolling
Doing my own thing
Ohh

[Chorus]
What if I?...
Had a thing on the side?
Made ya cry?
Would the rules change up?...
Or would they still apply?...
If I played you like a toy?...
Sometimes I wish I did act like a boy

[Guy Chopped & Screwed Voice]
Can't be getting mad!
What You Mad?
Can't Handle that!
Can't be getting mad!
What you mad?
Can't handle that!

[Verse: 2]
Girl go head and be...
(Just Like Em')
Go run the streets
(Just Like Em')
come home late say sleep like em'
Creep like em'
Front with ya friends
Act hard when you're with em' like em'
(What)
Keep a straight face when ya tell a lie
Always keep an airtight alibi
(Keep Him In The Dark)
What he don't know won't break his heart

[Hook]
Wish we could switch up the roles
And I could be that...
Tell you I love you
But when you call I never get back
Would you ask them questions like me?...
Like where you be at?
Cause I'm out 4 in the morning
On the corna rolling
Doing my own thing
Yea

[Chorus]
What if I?...
Had a thing on the side?
Made ya cry?
Would the rules change up?...
Or would they still apply?...
If I played you like a toy?...
Sometimes I wish I did act like a boy

[Guy Chopped & Screwed Voice]
Can't be getting mad!
What You Mad?
Can't Handle that!
Can't be getting mad!
What you mad?
Can't handle that!
Can't be getting mad!
What you mad?
Can't handle that!
Can't be getting mad!
What you mad?
Can't handle that!

[Bridge]
If I was always gone
With the sun getting home
(Would Ya Like That?)
Told you I was with my crew
When I knew it wasn't true
(Would Ya Like That?)
If I act like you
Walk A mile off in yo shoes
(Would Ya Like That?)
I'm messing with your head again
Dose of your own medicine

[Chorus]
What if I?...
Had a thing on the side?
Made ya cry?
Would the rules change up?...
Or would they still apply?...
If I played you like a toy?...
Sometimes I wish I did act like a boy

[Guy Chopped & Screwed Voice]
Can't be getting mad!
What You Mad?
Can't Handle that!
Can't be getting mad!
What you mad?
Can't handle that!
Can't be getting mad!
What you mad?
Can't handle that!
Can't be getting mad!
What you mad?
Can't handle that!

[Music Plays]

[Outro]
If I played you...
Would yo like that?
Had friends...
Would you like that?
never call?
Would you like that?
Hell naw
You wouldn't like that
No!

[Half-Chorus]
What if I made ya cry!
Would they still apply!
What if I...
If I played you like a toy
Sometimes I wish I did act like a boy!

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My dad said "you know..if you were a guy, I would've let you go anywhere you want and I wouldn't bother 'bout the time you come home as long as you're safe. But you're a girl and you're so vulnerable, that is why."

I've always wondered. What if I were a guy? Would I be like one of THEM? The type of guy who breaks a girl's heart to look like a playa, the type of guy who would lie, the type of guy who makes everything complicated?

I would like to be a guy. haha. =p

While I was lying on bed..staring at my baby blue painted ceiling, I began thinking 'bout alot of stuff. Yes, I do think alot when I'm alone and most of the time, it's about relationships. Can't help it really.

These 3 words :

I Love You

Began to feel like such strong words. I'm sure most of you have watched a movie/drama series where there's this scene of a guy/girl confessing their love to their partner by saying "I Love You" and the partner goes all crazy and starts uttering words like "what?? you love me?!". The reaction from such a confession would either be:

1. Says "I love you too" with tears in the eyes because he/she is over-joyed (okay, maybe without the tears)
   
2. Runs away in fear of a commitment only to regret later
   

I've always wondered...hah, it's only I-Love-You. 3 words. What's the big deal? Why would anyone be afraid of saying it to their partner? I say it all the time. Everytime I get into a new relationship, we'd start saying I Love You's immediately and I never found it to be difficult to say before.

But I guess..this is something I learned from the past. I can no longer say I-Love-You to just anyone. I know now..how important these words are and how meaningfull it can be.

I've begun to realise why people are afraid to say it. They're afraid that it might ruin the happiness of the relationship that they're having at the moment and what not. They're giving themselves reasons after reasons as to why they shouldn't. I don't really know how to explain this, sorry. You just gotta experience this for yourselves. Then..you will know. =)

I would also like to emphasize on the choices we have to make. Look, in life we're given the choice of being good or bad, being an optimistic person or a pessimist and etc. It's all up to you and you can blame no one for what you've become. Sure, there may be people who have walked in an out of your life and hurt you along the way, but there's a choice right there : to dwell in the past or to look at the past as a lesson to be learned and to get up again, stronger than before. I used to be the person who dwelled in my past. Blaming my past for the lack of trust that I have in guys and all that.

I used think that "all guys are bastards and not one of them are worth trusting because no matter what you do it's never enough and they're just un-appreciative. Being a jerk is in their blood. They're born with it. The guy whole "guy" package includes lies+hurt+backstabbing+ONLY nice when they're courting you and after getting you, they'd treat you like dirt+perverts"

However, I've given so much thought about it (it took me years to actually clear my mind from the past to figure this out), and I decided that I must be happy and to leave all those past hurt behind. It's time for me to start afresh. No matter what happens, life goes on and guys are still gonna be there whether I like it or not...Plus, obviously I'm gonna be with one guy for the rest of my life someday. So, I guess I'll just have to take my chances. =)

Guys, trust is a really big thing for a girl. So please, when you do have that complete trust from your girl, never try to break it deliberately. It will be very difficult for her to gain that trust for you again and trust me when I say, it friggin' hurts when you trust someone so completely to find that person breaking it is like digging out your heart and smashing it into a billion pieces, rolling it over with a truck, mashing it up, spitting on it and throwing it into a rubbish bin. NO, I'm not exaggerating.

That's all. Good day, ppl. ;)

I Can't Wait - Akon =)

I can't wait
I can't wait

[Verse 1]
I think of you
When the morning comes and the nighttime goes away (all day)
Don't you ever think that we won't be okay (no way)
There is nothing stopping me from loving you
Touching and rubbing and kissing and hugging you
What's this feeling taking over me
Baby that's love and it ain't no stopping it
I don't know as far as the eyes can see
Pick up the pace and it aint no dropping it
Always forever I'll be by your side
You're my Bonnie I'm your Clyde
That's the way that its gonna be
I'm in love with you and you in love with me

[Chorus]
(I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minute
It's you and me
(I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minute
It's you and me

[Verse 2]
(I can't wait)
I can't believe
That someone like you will love me endlessly (forever)
If this goes our way my love will always be (eternally)
You have set my mind my love my heart so free
Together forever however just you and me
What's this feeling taking over me
Baby that's love and it aint no stopping it
I don't know as far as the eyes can see
Pick up the pace and it aint no dropping it
Always forever I'll be by your side
You're my Bonnie I'm your Clyde
Cause that's the way that it's gonna be
I'm in love with you and you're in love with me

[Chorus]
(I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minute
It's you and me
(I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minute
It's you and me

[Bridge]
(I can't wait)
To have you right next to me
Here by my side
(I can't wait)
To kiss and caress you girl
While holding you tight
(I can't wait)
Can't imagine life without you
It just ain't right
(I can't wait)
I got a whole lot of loving
And you gonna get it tonight

[Chorus]
(I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minute
It's you and me
(I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minute
It's you and me
I can't wait
I can't wait
I can't wait
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*smiles* =D

Nothing much to update about except for pictures. I know I'm getting very boring! Please bear with me 'till August kays. =(

Btw, I've finally uploaded more of my pictures of the Japan trip from last year. Out of 2000+ I picked 80+ because...the internet speed....... you know, MALAYSIA. I'm sure you ppl will get what I mean yeah? =)

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