I realised that my blog sounds soo friggin' sad and I thought I should kinda balance it out with something..happier. Wanna read about it? hehe. :)

For many many weeks I've been thinking..should I or should I not talk about my current relationship status.. because things are pretty complicated at the moment. Still not going into details about it...

But, you know what?..whatever it is, I just wanna express how happy I am now. =))

This..is to you. (you know who you are) =)

This particular person..was the ONLY person who could make me forget about everything. I know this because..I've tried going out with different people and I was just not as happy as I am with him. Everytime I was out with him, I would just feel so alive. Before this, I knew him.. but never really got to know him better 'till recently.

The funny thing is, I was so afraid of the feelings that I was starting to feel for him at the beginning that I began running back to my past. For the month or so when I made the decision to go back..I kept thinking about it..kept thinking about him. Everytime I saw him, I just wanted so much to reach out to him and be with him..and when he's there, the only person I'd see in the entire place would be him. Everything else was just a blur. I began thinking things like, "damn it Regina, you cannot have feelings for him because it will never be returned. Stop it already."

I guess fate would always have its way with you though. Because..after all that, I realised something. That I couldn't be with the past anymore...during the first few weeks of the break up..this person, had doubts because I may go back again since I did it once. However, I was VERY determined to prove him wrong on that. I wanna say that, of all the mistakes I've done, this is something I am sure I will not want to repeat because I have never ever felt so bad.

All the bits and pieces of my life began to fall back into place on 25th April when I actually knew how much he meant to me after a certain incident. I was SO SO afraid of losing him.

Honestly, I have never been so happy with anyone..Sometimes I'm so happy I feel like throwing confetti in the air and dancing around. X)

...and I've been dying to say that on my blog because..in case you didn't know, I'm a person who blogs about almost everything in my life because I want to keep the memories. =)


(just in case..if I ever happen to lose my memory or something one day, at least I would have this blog to remind me of all the stuff that I've been through. haha.)

So please don't point fingers and say things like "why la Regina must blog about almost everything in her life". The truth is, there are waayyy more stuff that I'm not blogging about. Everything I'm saying here, is just some surface memories which when I read, would dig up the deeper memories hidden within.


I can't believe I blogged 2 long posts in a day! *gives myself a pat in the back*

What?? It's called self motivation thank you very much. =Pp