An Incredible Love Story
An incredible love story has come out of China recently and managed to touch the world.
It is a story of a man and an older woman who ran off to live and love each other in peace for over half a century.

The 70-year-old Chinese man who hand-carved over 6,000 stairs up a mountain for his 80-year-old wife has passed away in the cave which has been the couple's home for the last 50 years.

Over 50 years ago, Liu Guojiang a 19 year-old boy, fell in love with a 29 year-old widowed mother named Xu Chaoqin ..

In a twist worthy of Shakespeare 's Romeo and Juliet , friends and relatives criticized the relationship because of the age difference and the fact that Xu already had children.

At that time, it was unacceptable and immoral for a young man to love an older woman.. To avoid the market gossip and the scorn of their communities, the couple decided to elope and lived in a cave in Jiangjin County in Southern ChongQing Municipality.
In the beginning, life was harsh as hey had nothing, no electricity or even food. They had to eat grass and roots they found in the mountain, and Liu made a kerosene lamp that they used to light up their lives.

Xu felt that she had tied Liu down and repeatedly asked him, 'Are you regretful? Liu always replied, 'As long as we are industrious, life will improve.'

In the second year of li vin g in the mountain, Liu began and continued for over 50 years, to hand-carve the steps so that his wife could get down the mountain easily.
Half a century later in 2001, a group of adventurers were exploring the forest and were surprised to find the elderly couple and the over 6,000 hand-carved steps. Liu MingSheng, one of their seven children said, 'My parents loved each other so much, they have lived in seclusion for over 50 years and never been apart a single day. He hand carved more than 6,000 steps over the years for my mother's convenience, although she doesn't go down the mountain that much.'
The couple had lived in peace for over 50 years until last week. Liu, now 72 years, returned from his daily farm work and collapsed. Xu sat and prayed with her husband as he passed away in her arms. So in love with Xu, was Liu, that no one was able to release the grip he had on his wife's hand even after he had passed away.


'You promised me you'll take care of me, you'll always be with me until the day I died, now you left before me, how am I going to live without you?'

Xu spent days softly repeating this sentence and touching her husband's black coffin with tears rolling down her cheeks.

In 2006, their story became one of the top 10 love stories from China , collected by the Chinese Women Weekly. The local government has decided to preserve the love ladder and the place they lived as a museum, so this love story can live forever.


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A friend forwarded this story to me and it was so touching I just had to share it with all of you.
Somehow it made me believe that, in this harsh and cruel world, true love still exists..
I hope the story makes your day, because it certainly made mine. =)

Memories 3

*While we were shopping for some stuff for your dad*
You : What IF I become cacat one day? Will you still walk beside me?
Me : Yeah, of course. I said it before..I don't look on the outward appearance right..
You : *pretends to limp cacat-ly*
Me : Eh, excuse me! I said IF you are REALLY cacat ok. Not when you're PRETENDING! *walks further abit* =/
You : Embarassed right?!
Me : ..NO! I'm not. *moves closer* :)
You : Anyway, I'm really cacat..*looks at me with pitifull eyes*
Me : It's only a *****!! Don't exaggerate!

It's been a few weeks and I still miss you..
And whatever I've said still stands true. Even if one day some tragedy befalls upon you and you become like what you said *touch wood*, I would've chosen to be with you..always.

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You, you got me

Thinking it'll be alright.

You, you told me,

"Come and take a look inside."

You believed me,

In every single lie.

But I, I failed you this time.



And it feels like tonight.

I can't believe I'm broken inside.

Can't you see that there's nothing that I wanna do,

But try to make it up to you?

And it feels like tonight,

Tonight.



I was waiting

For the day you'd come around.

I was chasing,

And nothing was all I found.

From the moment you came into my life,

You showed me what's right.



And it feels like tonight.

I can't believe I'm broken inside.

Can't you see that there's nothing that I wanna do,

But try to make it up to you?

And it feels like tonight.



I never felt like this before.

Just when I leave, I'm back for more.

Nothing else here seems to matter.

In these ever-changing days,

You're the one thing that remains.

I could stay like this forever.



And it feels like tonight.

I can't believe I'm broken inside.

Can't you see that there's nothing that I wanna do,

But try to make it up to you?

And it feels like tonight.

Tonight.

Tonight.

'Cause there's nothing that I wanna do,

But try to make it up to you.

And it feels like tonight.

Tonight.

..I'm very tempted to do what the sign says..
all these confusion..


-Busy patching up-
I need some ideas!
I need GOOD ideas. How how how how??
But I can't ask anyone, I need to do it on my own.

By the way, I would like to declare (mind you, it takes alot of courage to do this publicly) that I'm a changed girl/female/person/lady/woman.
BECAUSE, I have decided to not bitch about other people.
And to those who goes wagging their pointy finger saying "tsk tsk, terrible shallow girl", I would like to ask you, "are you such an angel who's never talked bad about someone before?". There you have it. My counter-attack. If there are any further accusations, feel free to throw it all because I have a feeling that I can take it all in and give a good explanation to each and every question you may have.
Anywayy..it just kinda fell on me, like a chandelier falling on my head which cracked my head wide open and made me realise..that I shouldn't judge other people!
Like it is said "do unto others what you want others to do unto you".
I don't want people to judge me so, I won't judge others. No one's perfect. Simple as that.

With that, I would like to make a public apology to whoever I've offended knowingly or unknowingly over the years. I am sorry, forgive me?..

*breathes a sigh of relief*
I did it!!
I did it!!!!


*smiles*

Youngest sister went for some S.A.L.T. concert today and I didn't feel like staying at home..soo, I brought my sister to Pyramid.
Wanted to watch a movie but there weren't anything nice on.
Instead, we did some shopping, eating and picture taking.
Both my sis have been pestering me for photo stickers since a long long time ago. Finally took 1 set with my second sis today..
Will go again with my youngest sis soon. :)

Last night, I brought my sisters for the Daughtry traffic jam street party as well.



Bought this dress from clothesbucket.blogspot.com..they have plenty of nice dresses. I bought 4..and just booked 1 more about an hour ago.

Second sister was superbly excited, youngest sis was acting normal and I just felt I should be happy.
The concert was great..Daughtry rocked..apart from the sudden play of lollipop by the dj who was supposedly entertaining us while we were waiting for Daughtry's appearance. Sigh. Kinda ruined my mood a little. Made me feel so...argh. =/

Sorry for the short words..don't have any inspiration to post long posts at the moment.

Yesterday while my dad was driving me home from work, my second sis was in the car complaining about "never going to a concert before".
She said that she really really wanted to go for the Daughtry concert, her friends were going for Avril Lavigne's concert but she was going no where..yadda yadda.
Kinda felt bad for her because I guess I knew how she felt when I was at that age.
By coincidence, this afternoon my old friend TK messaged me on msn asking me if there was anyone who's interested in purchasing a pair of Daughtry concert tickets..
Was thinking about it and finally decided that I should buy 2 tics for both my sisters.
However, after a few min he told me he could get 3 tickets..soo..I bought 3.
The whole time while I was planning all these 'till the moment I went out to get the tickets from my friend, I hid it from her because I wanted to surprise her.
Around 9pm when I reached home and showed her the tickets she screamed like crazy and actually teared from joy.



been kinda moody lately..but when I see the people I love happy, I'd feel happy too. :)

It's not that I can't live without you
It's just that I don't even want to try
Every night I dream about you
Ever since the day we said goodbye
If I wasn't such a fool
Right now I'd be holding you
There's nothin' that I wouldn't do
Baby if I only knew

Chorus:
The words to say
The road to take
To find a way back to your heart
What can I do
To get to you
And find a way back to your heart (ohhh)

I don't know how it got so crazy
But I'll do anything to set things right
'Cause your love is so amazing
Baby you're the best thing in my life
Let me prove my love is real
Make you feel the way I feel
I promise I would give the world
If only you would tell me girl

Chorus:
The words to say
The road to take
To find a way back to your heart
What can I do
To get to you
And find a way back to your heart

Give me one more chance (give me one more chance)
To give my love to you (give you my love, my love)
Cause no one on this earth loves you like I do
Tell me

Chorus:
The words to say
The road to take
To find a way back to your heart
What can I do
To get (get) to you
And find a way back to your heart (ohhh)

I turn back time
To make you mine
And find a way back to your heart (gotta find a way to your heart)
I beg and plead
Fall to my knees
To find a way back to your heart

The words to say (the words to say)
[These arms of mine]
The road to take (the road to take)
[Are open wide]
To find a way back to your heart (find a way)
(gotta find my way) [From now until the end of time]
What can I do (baby, baby)
[You are my world
What can I do?]
To get to you (get to you)
[This heart of mine belongs to you]
And find a way back to your heart
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I know I said that I'd stop the hurt I'm feeling...
but I guess it's easier said than done.
How did you make me feel this way?

My life is so full of un-wanted drama.

Mistakes.
Every single one of us would have made a mistake one way or another. A mistake is a mistake no matter how big or small it is.
It could be as simple as "I mistaken you for another person"
or a mistake so big like you cheating on your partner.
Sometimes a mistake could destroy your life as well as the lives of the people you love around you. It would hurt, you would crumble, they would leave.
Every mistake would usually lead to the feeling of regret..the feeling of "what if's" or "I wish". "What if I never did that?" or "I wish I could turn back time and un-do my mistakes".
After last night, I realised one thing..
that..a mistake is like a stumbling block.
You could either fall and stay down, or you could rise up again.
Instead of a stumbling block,you could see it as a stepping stone.
Every mistake I've done, every obstacle I've faced have made me a stronger person. It's like a voice inside me which says, "hey, you did that before and look what happened? don't ever do that again".
But you know..sometimes being just human we tend to make the same mistake twice. And twice, is all you need to totally wake up from your little fantasy land of perfection.
I've felt so much pain, caused so much pain..and I know..that there will always be that invisible scar in my heart that reminds me of it..
However..no matter what it is..I can't live like this anymore. I can't cause anymore sufferings for myself and for the person I love. I can't go in beating myself emotionally for whatever's happened..
I must take control over my own emotions.
The words I say may not mean anything..but..to that particular person..
Just stay on the side and watch me live this life after you..
Single-hood is something I would embrace now because I am probably destined to be alone.


I would still blog on my happy memories because I want to remember them.
Never thought that I would look back on the laughs that we had and cried instead.

I'm not gonna bother anymore. If my parents still chooses to invade my privacy by reading whatever I wanna say then so be it.
Read this.

Memories 2

We were at the Eye of Malaysia KL because I said I never been there although it's been there for so long. And up 'till early of this year I wanted to have a glance at how it looks like because it seems that everyone have taken a peek at it..I wanted to see what it was all about..

You said that the lights were really nice..but on the day we were there, it wasn't really that magnificent as the way you saw it previously.

We sat on the grass and waited for the light show anyway.
You had your right arm around drapped over my shoulders and while waiting I started nibbling on your arm cuz I had nothing else better to do.
Felt you looking at me and I said "why are you staring?? =/"
You said : nothing..dreams do come true.. =)
Although that night.. there weren't any magnificent lights flashing around, fireworks and all that.. in my heart, I felt it all. And although I only smiled at your words, what I really wanted to say was: "yes..I guess dreams really do come true.. :)"

Been doing some thinking for the past few days..
Decided to do something productive instead of moping around at home doing nothing..
So..I bought the whole season 4 of Desperate Housewives and Season 3 of Ghost Whisperer to ease my boredom.

I am much stronger than this.
Each experience teaches me and it moulds me to be a better person.

Mommy and Daddy, there's something called privacy. I know you both are secretly reading my blog and I hate it.

STOP SPYING ON ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Who am I??

and finally this.

I've bothered too much about what people think.

Too bothered about the way I look in other's eyes.

People have told me that I've changed, but I never truly accepted the fact that I did.

Now..I have to agree. I can't live in denial anymore. Yes, I have changed. I have changed from that innocent girl who wears only jeans and baggy shirts, to the girl I am today in shorts and spaghetti straps. It's so slutty looking, I used to hate girls like myself.

And I realised, that I'm not myself anymore.

It's time I go back, to who I was. Back to square one.

I don't care if guys aren't attracted to me, I don't care if people are gonna say that I'm becoming plain and boring.

The second picture above is me. And when I say it's me, I mean that is who I really am. The invisible girl that no one takes notice of on the street.

And I'm going to revert myself back to that..

Pictures from Facebook and Friendster will now be deleted. I do not need judgements from others anymore.

I… can’t get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just can’t seem to find a way
To leave the love behind


I ain’t tripping
I’m just missing you
You know what I’m saying
You know what I mean


You’ve kept me hanging from a string
While you make me cry
I’ve tried to give you everything
But you just give me lies


I ain’t tripping
I’m just missing you
You know what I’m saying
You know what I mean


Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’d be wishing that you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool
There’s nothing I can do
I’m such a fool for you


I can’t take it
What am I waiting for?
I’m still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
It’s true, I’m stuck on you


Now loves a broken record that’s been
Skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday
Why we have to play these games we play


I ain’t tripping
I’m just missing you
You know what I’m saying
You know what I mean
Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’d be wishing that you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool


I can’t take it
What am I waiting for?
I’m still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
It’s true, I’m stuck on you


Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’d be wishing that you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool
There’s nothing I can do
I’m such a fool for you


I can’t take it
What am I waiting for?
I’m still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
I hate you but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
Don’t know what to do
I’m stuck on you

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I know it's so corny. But words from songs really do express how I feel..

Memories 1

Me : Oh wow, Your cat loves me! Look, it always comes to ME when I come..hehehe :p

You : Eh, please ah. I'm here that's why it's here. The cat listens to ME. See, when I call it,
it will come. *opens the gate* come here!

*cat ignores and walks away or rolls on the ground outside*

You : *starts giving reasons* my dog is out la/because you are here/the cat is not hungry

Me : Righhhttt...hahaha. Your dog loves me too. :)

You : Because it's a MALE dog.

Me : *rolls eyes* whatever. jealousss. haha :p

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Who are you now?..
Are you still the same..
Or did you change somehow?..
What do you do..
At this very moment when I think of you?..
And when I'm looking back..
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?..

No matter how I fight it..
Can't deny it..
Just can't let you go..

I still need you..
I still care about you..
Though everything's been said and done..
I still feel you..
Like I'm right beside you..
But still no word from you..

Now look at me..
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see..
That I keep coming back..
And I'm stuck in a moment..
That wasn't meant to last (to last)..

I've tried to fight it..
Can't deny it..
You don't even know..

That I still need you..
I still care about you..
Though everything's been said and done..
I still feel you..
Like I'm right beside you..
But still no word from you..

No no
Wish I could find you..
Just like you found me..
Then I would never let you go.. (without you)

Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you


I miss you.

When you called..my heart skipped a beat.
I wanted so much to hear your voice, to see you, to hug you, to kiss you and tell you that nothing's changed..
If there was one thing I could wish for, it would be you..I wish I could take everything I said and everything I've done back..but I can't..
I never knew how much I meant to you..I never knew how much you needed me..
I thought I was the only one feeling this way. I was afraid, I was so afraid that I was the only one falling in love with you. Time and time again I told myself, he's not the kind of guy who would fall in love with me. That's why, I always held back..
Everytime I say good night, everytime I say goodbye, I wanted to say "I love you". But I couldn't. I was afraid that I would scare you away. So, I made up my mind to say to myself that I am not ready fall love.
And now..hearing all these..you, telling me, that you were never as happy with anyone else before..I would have been so happy to hear that if none of this was happening..
Did you know how much you mean to me, baby?..
Did you??...
You mean everything to me..and still do..I never thought I would fall so deeply in love with someone..I never thought something that started out as a casual date could lead to this..
I am so sorry that I did all these..
I never meant to hurt you..
You don't know how much I need you..
I can't believe you said that you wanted to propose..I just want you to know that you were so perfect for me too..I've never felt like this..
I just wonder..why does God allow me to meet such a perfect guy for me and not allow us to be together?..
You have made me so happy..more happy than I have ever been in my entire life..
Remember the first time we went out?..remember our first song?..
Lollipop was playing, and you were looking so cheeky. The way you looked at me, made me blush. I wanted to tell you then, that I like you. But I didn't because I was afraid.
Then, there was the video. We became closer after that. I remember the day you told me you had butterflies in your stomach. And me, with my ego saying "oh? don't you only feel that when you like someone?", and you said you did and would tell me who it is tomorrow. The next day, we attended a party, you looked so good I felt like hugging you there and then but I was still afraid of touching you. And I remember.. the day you handed me the cd was the first day I made a mistake towards you but you forgave and said that you wanted to see me the next day. I was so happy.
Soon..there were just countless times we spent together..going places, watching a movie, talking in the car, going for ice-cream just because you feel like it, going for nasi lemak because I said it's been a long time, introducing me to the best soup daging in the world, teaching me how to eat the egg that hasn't been formed into an egg, teaching me what shows to watch, teaching me about music, teaching me that tobasco can be matched with almost anything, giving me a "tour" of your house..I couldn't believe there were maggots in the corn which you said was left for God knows how long, telling me about your life..
I miss the 3 days where we could walk about like a real couple without worries..
I miss going to that romantic jetty..
I miss holding your hand in the car while you drive..
I miss the way you bullied me..
I miss the way you bite when you're excited..
I miss your laughs..
I miss your eyes..
I miss the way you pretend to know everything..
I miss the songs you dedicated to me..
I miss how you showed your "strength"..
to put it in simpler terms..I miss everything about you. The past few days have been the toughest days of my life.
I had to act happy infront of my friends, in front of my family, but everynight I have been crying myself to sleep. At times I wondered, what were you doing..while I was thinking about you?..
When you didn't talk to me for a whole day..I figured that you have moved on because you never seemed to have the trouble to move on..you have so many friends by your side, and you could get whoever you want.
I remember you saying, how depressed you were when you broke up with a particular someone, you started dating people but there was nothing serious to it. You didn't allow yourself to fall in love. Well guess what?..that's the same with me..After him, I did date other people, I told you that before..
I can be nice to guys, I can date, but the problem is, my heart, is not with them.
You were the one I fell for. I told you before, that when I love someone, I would love him completely. You've locked my heart away and threw the key. Why did you do that? It's so difficult for me to say "I love you" to anyone after all I been through. But I said I love you too because I meant it. I mean every word I say.
Do you remember how much I cried to you the day I broke up with my ex?..Crying in the car..telling you everything I did for him which he never saw..the only things he saw was the negative side of me. And you were there, just listening, listening to me while I cried my heart out because of love. You brought the coke in, kept the cup. And there was this mandarin orange you left on your dashboard for days 'till it rotted. When I found out he cheated on me, the first person I thought of was you. Again, I cried to you, in public, humiliating you because people may think that you did something which made me cry. I thought I would never love anyone again, for a long long time. I thought, I was stronger than this.
You have proven myself wrong. This is worse, this is so much worse than anything I have ever gone through. I rather go through the beatings and the shoutings than this. Anything but this.
I really believed that fate brought us together after such a long time, but now, it's tearing us apart again. Why does it have to be this way?...
I know I've hurt you so much..I can't express how sorry I am..I can't tell you how much I regret everything I did..but there's just so much I can do.
I've never regretted anything more in my life than this and I really wish there was a time machine where I could go back and undo all these pain I've caused us both.
You said that tonight, you're going to proove to me and to everyone that you would not talk to me ever again. I just want to tell you that, I understand. Truly, I do.
I've done so many things that made you think I've changed.
You can go around dating anyone, you can hold their hands, you can act happy, I just hope that you will find genuine happiness, and not just the short term happiness which only lasts while you're out like you said.
You can pretend, and I can too. But there's something in our hearts that we both know is missing.
A piece of you have grown in me, so deep, I could never uproot it again. The only thing I can do is to let time heal the wounds I've inflicted upon myself.
I feel as though I've taken a knife and stabbed it into my heart.
Love is stupid they say, I've been very very stupid. Too many times.
Although we were only together for a few months, the feelings you made me feel, surpassed everything I ever felt from any previous relationships..
After this..we wouldn't hear from each other anymore..and it kills me to know that someday, you would be happy with someone new.
I just hope and pray that..in the future, the girl you meet, would be perfect. She wouldn't hurt you, wouldn't do stupid things. And I hope, someday in the future, our paths would cross again..just like how it did. Maybe it would be when you're married with a family or when you've become someone succesfull, I don't know. All I know is, no matter what happens, you would be the one person who taught me a very valuable lesson that I would pass on to my children. And that is.."to never let go of the person you love..no matter how difficult it may be."
I love you so much. More than I could ever love a person and there wouldn't be a day I'd stop thinking about you, for a very long time. I'm just sorry that although we were so perfect for each other, things didn't work out the way we wanted it to be.
People may be laughing at me now, while reading this post, thinking "hah, fucking bitch, good for you."
But you know what?..you people can go ahead and talk, and crap all you want. I'm not bothering anymore. I just want you to know how much you mean to me, that's it.
I can't believe how much I'm crying while I'm writing this. I used to cry to you about someone else..and now, all these tears, are because of you.
I know you're starting to proove yourself this very minute while I'm writing this..
I want you to know as well..that I have also made a decision..
to proove that my love for you is true and that I have not changed. Not one bit.
I am not going to date anyone until I feel that my love for you is gone.
This is in fact, the longest post I've ever written in my life.

And..Bb, for one last time..this is for you. You have made such a difference in my life. Thank you for the memories. I will treasure them for as long as I live. I am thankfull for those few months because I would rather be with you a day than to have never been with you at all..I'm going to miss you.. so much..

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me..

There's is no one new.

Quite a long time ago, I dropped a small box of eyeshadow I was using.. pieces of it fell and what remained were the ones that were strong enough to stick in it.

Today, I accidentally dropped that box of eyeshadow again, nothing fell out.

It reminded me of my heart. It got broken so many times that now, I feel that there's nothing left. All that's in me are the small bits of will power that tells me "Regina, don't ever fall in love again. Don't let your guards down, it's too risky. You won't wanna get hurt again right? Save yourself. Build a wall."

I need my heart back.. Where is it??..What should I do?..
More importantly, what would be the right thing to do??..

So far, I've decided not to mix around too much with the previous group of people who has links to my past. I need a new start, a new group of friends, people who can show me how happy life can be. Friends that can help me start afresh a.k.a. "to help me turn over a new leaf".
Is that a good decision?..I really hope it would be.. =/

However, this is not applicable to Annie and Nadia, those 2 are the only OLD friends I'm willing to mix with everyday. They're the ones who've seen me break and get back again so many times. Guys have come and gone, but they've remained through it all. :)

This I Promise You

When the visions around you,
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you,
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength,
I'll give you hope,
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call,
Was standing here all along..

And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever,
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never...
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my wordI give you my heart (give you my heart)
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow,
Forever has now begun...

Just close your eyes (close your eyes)
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you..
This I promise you..

Over and over I fall (over and over I fall)
When I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all...

And I will take (I will take you in my arms)
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong (right where you belong)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you baby
Just close your eyes
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Ooh, I promise you...

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If someone could say all these words to me and really sincerely mean what he says, I will most definitely give all my love to him.. without any regrets.
It's my favourite love song of all time.

Went for lunch at ss15 and I decided to contact Nad and Annie...cuz I really needed to talk to someone..

Thanks girls, you're the best!
Really Sorry for embarassing you both by crying at Asia...public place.. =/

Nad remember our plan kay..I really need a getaway..

it looks like it's gonna rain since morning, but up 'till now, it hasn't rained yet.

This morning, instead of going off at the 4th floor of my office, I went off at the 3rd floor.
The door says "pull", I pushed, thinking why isn't it opening.
These are things I do daily and yet, I'm doing it all wrong.
What the hell is going ON???!!!!!

And, why is that when I'm feeling down, the weather has to be all gloomy and rainy?!
It's really not helping. It's making me sink deeper into my misery.

Woke up at 8am in the morning today although I intended to sleep 'till 9.30am. It's like there's an auto alarm clock in my body which refuses to let me sleep past 8am. Sigh.
So, I dragged my self out of the bed, went online for awhile to pass my time and went for my facial at 10am.
Facial ended around 12pm and I rushed home to bathe, pack my clothes/shoes/accessories/etc. Went to Chase Up Salon to wash and blow my hair because I love the way they blow dry my hair. Biggie curls, me like. :)
Fetched M around 1pm because I needed someone to show me the way to KL (I am indeed very noob with roads because I don't drive much). When we reached KL, I picked KH because we needed someone to show us the road to Ampang. (M is almost as NOOB as me) See how it works? I feel like a bladdy genius. I needed 2 ppl to bring me to Ampang.
Thenn, I met up with the photographer known as AliasKhal for the photoshoot. Poor M and KH had to wander around the Ampang Point while I did my shoot. Sorry guyss!
(They watched Hellboy together 'tho)
Anyway, I just have to say that this is one of the most marvelous photoshoot I've ever done and it's something I thought I would never do. I did it because, I just wanted to try how it's like. So please don't condemn me and all okay. It's ART.=(
My whole perspective of photography has changed after this experience.
Btw, in the beginning I didn't know who Alias was.
Only towards the end, he told me he's actually a director who does commercials.
wah.
So touched.. he's actually willing to take photos of plain me. *tears of joy*

Will post some of the pictures when I've received it from him.
'till then, tatasss =D

*taken last post down because I realised that there's alot of busybodies. ****

Was talking to a friend about clubs and I don't know, I just had the sudden urge to blog about it. To let people know the real me instead of just pointing their fingers at me claiming that I'm like that before getting to know me better. haha. :)

Okay, honestly about 2 years ago I thought that clubs were fun..you know, with the loud booming music, the chance to check out hot guys (if there are any), dance and have a great time with your friends, etc.

But lately..I just feel that it's very much a waste of time. I feel that the guys there are getting more desperate and more shallow. And I'm just so NOT interested in shallow guys.
These days I prefer just hanging out at a restaraunt somewhere, have a good talk and a good laugh with my friends..that's about it. I know I sound pretty boring but um, it's the truth, I'm quite a mellow person. I don't attend a long string of parties, or club every weekend although many perceive me to be that kinda outgoing girl. haha. Wonder why?

I don't find the need to impress anyone, or the need to be someone I'm not anymore.
Everything I do these days would be for myself and for my own happiness. :)
I feel much more independant as a person than I was before. hehe.

I feel like a lost child without my own laptop at home..floating from one computer to another..
For this whole week I'll just blog from my office. =/

The past few days have been soo tiring for me. Having that insomnia shit again. Every night I'd feel tired but I can't sleep. My mind is too awake..
Been going on for about 3 or 4 days and my system finally crashed yesterday. My head felt soo heavy.. and the moment I hit the bed I went to sleep.

Oh and I should blog about this. (Different topic)

While chatting with my mother and sisters about relationships the other day, I asked my second sis (Charissa) whether she's had a bf before. She's 16 this year by the way.
Her answer, I tell you, is WISE beyond her years. hahaha

She said, "Nah, I don't wanna go into a relationship right now. I don't want to be emo and all, I like being happy and single. Wait 'till I'm 20+ only I'll get into a relationship la, so I can get depressed because I have nothing else better to do"

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH
FINALLY!!!!
I've been trying to load this stupid "new post" page for ages!!!

I. Feel. So. Freaking. Bored.

Life at home is nothing without my computer because..

My sister's com is so slow.
My other sister's com is the same.
My dad's laptop is fast but the internet is slow.
Mom left her laptop at the office.
$)#)*$#)%$

Been rolling around my bed for the past 2 hours trying to sleep. I feel so tired but I can't sleep.
Hate this.
Since I couldn't sleep, I tired logging onto the msn using my sister's com outside. After 15 min = unable to login.
Proceeded to my other sister's com = after FOREVER, still logging in.
Switched to my dad's laptop = SAME.

WHY THE HELL IS THE INTERNET SO SLOW?!?!?!
The only thing I can do now is blog. I feel so cut off from the outside world it's making me depressed.
*sits in the corner of the room and starts drawing circles like a pathetic loser with a gloomy aura all around*

Whatever. =(

Shall blog about yesterday instead.
Met up with Nadia yesterday and we went for some hair pampering session. =p
Sisters tagged along with us because they were bored of staying at home.
Went to Pyramid after that to walk around, chat 'bout everything nonsensical and to just waste our time.
Nad's bf Uday came around 7+ to meet up with her and I went off around then, leaving the two lil lovebirds to date.
Realised that I didn't memorise where I parked my car and started feeling panicky because I dislike walking around in the extremely hot parking lot looking for my car.
In the end, we asked the guard to search for my car and he found it within 3 minutes.
Rushed home to drop my sisters and changed to better looking clothes to attend a birthday party.
Martin a.k.a. Pots had his 21st birthday party yesterday and man, the cake was huge. THere were alot alot of people and it was fun hanging out. =)

Got me thinking about my own 21 birthday. (I'm always planning for my future :p)
I have a feeling that... I'll be celebrating it alone, with a candle on a muffin. Very sad indeed. =(

And now, for another "did you know?" post about my life.

DID YOU KNOW?
I have never truly celebrated a really romantic/happy/memorable Valentines Day/Birthday with a bf. BUT, I have celebrated plenty of happy birthdays with just friends.
Have no idea why but when it comes around to those particular dates..its either -> I've broken up with the bf, have a bf but argued a few days before, yadda yadda. I think I'm jinxed!

Somedayyy....I would like to try to celebrate those special days happily with the guy I love. =(


Ran out of ideas on what to blog about. Shall go back to my room and roll on my bed again. Toodles.

My laptop crashed!!!
Don't know what happened..
It was still workin' fine on Wednesday night but last night when I tried to switch it on, all it gave me was a black screen. wth.
My beloved laptop.... I have so many music files, videos and pictures in there...... ="(

It didn't seem that long ago...When I was 10, I've always wondered :

• How would I be like, 10 years from now?
  
• How would I look like?
  
• How would it be like, to be in high school?
• How would it be like, to go to college?
• Will I ever like a disgusting boy?
• Will I ever have a boyfriend?
• Will I ever fall in love like those in the movies?
• How does it feel like to drive? How do people in park the car?
  

Fast forward those years..
now that I'm approaching 20, I found that those questions have been answered..

I've made friends, I've lost friends, learned about love and the hurt that comes along with it, the difference between surface friends and true friends, learned that life is full of surprises, the importance of telling the truth, I've learned to be myself and not to succumb to peer preassure, that boys aren't that disgusting afterall, driving is easy but tiring sometimes, that trust is something very valuable and more importantly, that things always happens when you least expect it. =)

As for falling in love, and having that "Happily Ever After"..
Well, that's just something I'll blog about when/if I ever get married. ;)

what...the....hell.....
Heard of another wedding-coming-soon again.

Is it a trend to get married this YEAR???