Mistakes.
Every single one of us would have made a mistake one way or another. A mistake is a mistake no matter how big or small it is.
It could be as simple as "I mistaken you for another person"
or a mistake so big like you cheating on your partner.
Sometimes a mistake could destroy your life as well as the lives of the people you love around you. It would hurt, you would crumble, they would leave.
Every mistake would usually lead to the feeling of regret..the feeling of "what if's" or "I wish". "What if I never did that?" or "I wish I could turn back time and un-do my mistakes".
After last night, I realised one thing..
that..a mistake is like a stumbling block.
You could either fall and stay down, or you could rise up again.
Instead of a stumbling block,you could see it as a stepping stone.
Every mistake I've done, every obstacle I've faced have made me a stronger person. It's like a voice inside me which says, "hey, you did that before and look what happened? don't ever do that again".
But you know..sometimes being just human we tend to make the same mistake twice. And twice, is all you need to totally wake up from your little fantasy land of perfection.
I've felt so much pain, caused so much pain..and I know..that there will always be that invisible scar in my heart that reminds me of it..
However..no matter what it is..I can't live like this anymore. I can't cause anymore sufferings for myself and for the person I love. I can't go in beating myself emotionally for whatever's happened..
I must take control over my own emotions.
The words I say may not mean anything..but..to that particular person..
Just stay on the side and watch me live this life after you..
Single-hood is something I would embrace now because I am probably destined to be alone.


I would still blog on my happy memories because I want to remember them.
Never thought that I would look back on the laughs that we had and cried instead.