I've realised and I'm amazed at how independent I have become in a few months.
I used to be the kinda girl who abandoned her own friends because of a bf, and the only I person I wanted to see was my bf. I was the kinda girl who centered the world around the bf because I felt that if I gave him all of my time, he would love me more.
I know now, how childish and stupid it was for me to do so.
True friends are very important. I know this because, there was a point in time where I had no close friends at all. When I had a problem, when I needed someone, no matter how many times I scrolled my phone book, I had no idea who to call. I had no one. And it was all my fault, I couldn't blame anyone.
I honestly don't want a relationship like that anymore. I'm seeing things differently now..I need someone..whom I would be able to trust, who is worth it, who is able to handle things maturely..and most of all, a person who is able to love me for who I am, not what I am. I don't want to jump into another relationship if I don't feel the connection.
Honestly, I feel that it's really difficult for me to actually fall in love and stay in love with a guy for that long now..Ok take for example the guy I used to date a few months ago. In my blog posts in the month of July, I was getting heartbroken professing how much I love him, yadda yadda. But now? I feel nothing. So okay, that wasn't love at all. Tsk. Probably just infatuation or puppy love. It faded off in less than 3 months. Wth? That was such a waste of my time.
They said that, if the right guy comes along, you will know.
I don't want to search for a bf. I'm not looking either.
Soo..I've sworn to myself, I will NOT get into a serious relationship and let everyone know that he's my bf until I am really certain that he is the one I'll be able to be with.
Btw, I don't like it when people tell me "find a bf".
How to find a bf? Is there a place where bf's are lined up on a shelf for a girl to take her pick?
It's stupid. I don't believe in "finding" a bf. Instead, I want things to happen naturally. For me to fall for him naturally. I want my future bf and I to have a beautiful story. Not just, "can u be my gf?" and I say "ok". That is so high school + boring at the same time.
So yeah, I'm single. So what? Imma enjoy every moment of it 'till the special someone comes along. ;)