I was pondering upon this question for awhile...it just came into my mind, all of a sudden. The question is: If there was one thing in the world in which you could choose to represent you, what would it be and why?

My answer would be : The bamboo tree

I know that in life, there will never be "smooth sailing" all the way. Everyone would have their tribulations in one way or another : failed ralationships, broken families, financial crisis. Etc. Those who are weak, would say "there's no way out of this, I am doomed" and therefore, you'd see the countless numbers of suicides happening around the world. Sorry to sound harsh, but I despise suiciders and do not pity them because they are selfish and not to mention, stupid. Not only are they trying to get rid of their own problems by running away from it forever, they cause nothing but heartaches to those who loves them.

On the other hand, I admire people who have been torn and beaten, people who have gone through the roughest times and yet, still push on through. Sometimes when I hear stories about how the poorer people in other parts of the world are struggling to survive, just for one more day, an hour even? I'd feel so embarassed. I have been complaining too much. I have been magnifying my problems into huge ones which makes it seem like a matter of life and death. How can I, be complaining about my failed relationships when it is absolutely NOTHING compared to the anguish other people may be feeling at that very moment? On the day I was crying over a relationship that was never meant to be, someone, somewhere, may have been experiencing something much worse. Eg: A mother who lost her child to a disease, a patient battling with cancer, an accident victim struggling between life and death. Get my point?

Okay, back to the failed relationships. So yeah, I've had a few, here and there but I've decided I will not dwell on it anymore. I dislike people asking me "how come you don't have a bf?" because right now, I believe that I should wait until the right person comes along. Feelings of "love" as people say, will come and go, being depressed over a relationship is just a plain waste of time. I learnt that as much as I say "I will never fall in love again" I know that someday I will because things always happens when you least expect it. There's just some things you can't rush.

ALTHOUGH..As much as I'd love to have someone pamper me, and treat me real nice, I would very much rather be independent. I want to be the kind of person who is able to pick myself up when I fall and to go through life where I can say the experiences I had, moulded me to become a better person. I want to experience more, so that when people come to me with their problems, I can say "hey, I've been through it, so can you, nothing is ever too difficult and even this too shall pass". I want to be a person where the advices that comes out from my mouth are not just mere words by trying to put myself into their shoes, but something which I have experienced. At least I can say "I know how you feel" in truth because I know how I hate it when someone tells me "I know how you feel" when they absolutely don't have a clue.

So yeah, to sum it up, life's journey can throw me as many obstacles as it wants to, I know I'll stand strong. There may be a few buckets of tears, complaints or depression along the way..but..
Just like a bamboo tree, I'll bend but never break.

;)

p.s.: I am not in depression, so don't be too concerned. I'm just giving a piece of my mind :)