Acne and the whole "bringing down your self esteem thing".

I used to have a perfectly smooth face when I was in high school..
But..after graduating.."a few" pimples started showing.
I almost went crazy.
Then, more and more came..eventually I was DIAGNOSED with acne. Now, the reason why I used the word diagnosed would be because it's like a freaking nightmare.
I went to doctors, beauticians, wasted my parents money on face products, etc etc just to try and save my face to return it to its "former glory".

Acne IS a very depressing thing.
It made me feel soooo ugly for years and I had to hide behind make up, etc etc.
But people who NEVER had acne would never know how it feels like.
It's EVEN more painful when people who used to go like "wah, your skin so nice" to "what happened to your skin?"
My whole world kinda crumbled.

I hate using make up, really I do.
But I just can't face the world when I had such a bad case of acne.
I was afraid about what would people think of me?
Because even I, couldn't accept myself in that condition.
I kept telling myself that I'm ugly, I'm ugly, I'm ugly all the time.

But lately...something changed.
I began to "not bother" about my acne so much. In fact, I didn't bother about how I look most of the time. Basically I had the "ugly then ugly lah. Who cares" mentality.
And it actually began to subside??? (my mom prayed for my acne to go away too. See it's THAT bad. lol)
The dark spots are still here..but I can wait for it to go. After all, I've had it for years anyway.
I'm just thankful that it's not as bad as it was anymore.

On the plus side!
I've decided that, if a guy can accept me in such an awefull state, I would probably fall in love with him, because then, I would know that, that person isn't after me for some other stuff. haha :p

So anyway, I've decided to NOT be a slave to make up anymore.
I'm going for my Japanese class without make up at all today.
And will probably go to cell group without make up too.
Hopefully I won't scare my cell members away.

Will post picture of me without makeup tomorrow (took it today).