I've always wondered if my right brain or left brain was more dominant..because..although I write with my right hand, I realised that my traits were always more towards a "right brain person". I can write using my left hand as well though it's not as fast compared to my right hand due to the lack of practise. Btw, if you're a lefty, you're a right brain user. If you're a righty, you're a left brain user.
Before I continue I guess you should read about the difference between the left brain and the right brain to give you a better understanding on the subject.
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Research has shown that the right side of the brain regulates artistic activities such as painting, music, theatre, dance, writing, etc. Consequently, you may notice that there are a number of lefties who choose artistic careers. Right-brained people are better able to work with the imagination to develop creative solutions to problems. They are generally spontaneous individuals who respond emotionally to circumstances. And, they have a way of creating art out of thin air. They are the type of people who see all the colors of the rainbow, can distinguish the scents of blossoms in the air, and dream in color.
On the other hand, persons ruled by their left brain are likely to be the alter-ego of the right-brained individuals. They are "Mr. Spocks" of the planet who fathom the unfathomable through the use of logic and sharp analyses. They are the mathematicians and the scientists, the doctors, and the communicators. They perfect the art of nitpicking, and analyze every word that comes out of another's mouth. In the decision making process, they calculate each step and analyze the results of their "research" before proceeding to the next step. Their actions are slower, thought-out, and decisive. And they put little stock in the emotional aspect of decision making.
If you're a lefty, you tend to be the opposite of the right handed individual in many ways. You base your thoughts and beliefs on feelings more than on cold, hard facts. You use your active imagination to carry you through the good and bad times in life, and are easily able to empathize with individuals less fortunate than yourself because you can literally "put yourself in their shoes." While your alter ego is able to run detailed errands with ease, however, you find these tasks mundane and are more likely to excel in jobs that require the use of your vital imagination. Occupations such as theater, art, music, and dance are valid choices for you. Your emotions play a large role in your decisions. And, while left-brained people are realistic, logic-driven and detail-oriented realists, you carry reality one step further by including dreams into the formula.
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Ok..so whatever I've highlighted in bold basically describes what I feel most of the time. I hate...I really hate following things by the books. I like creativity and I'm sometimes a tad bit over emotional over things. K, maybe most of the time. Take for example the whole Michael Jackson issue. When I found out he was tormented his whole life, it's like my heart just went out to him. I can't stand seeing people in pain (mentally and physically) and I can't take it if I'm forced to watch someone being hurt yet I can't do anything about it. Sometimes I wish I could be less emotion-filled...heartless and have less love to give. 'Cause it hurts to know that this world is cruel and is unable to recipocrate such feelings. I realised that everytime I open my heart, the only thing I get in return is pain and betrayal.
You know, everyone's saying like.."why are you so obsessed with MJ?" and I'd answer "oh I just love his dance and his music" etc etc. Would you like to know the real reason behind it? At first I thought I should just keep it to myself because it was something personal but I bet some people are thinking "oh man, she's gotten crazy". I'm so obsessed over MJ now, because I regret not appreciating his music while he was still alive. I regret being one of those people who thought he bleached his skin without knowing the true reason. I emphatise with how he felt about the world because he looked at the world through the eyes of a child. I can't describe it but it just pains my heart to know that he cared so much for the hurting people in the world yet he was ridiculed time and time again. This is the least I could do.
"Oh Regina you're overly melodramatic. He's just a celebrity who doesn't even know you"
Ah, but that's what a usual non-emotion filled person who say. When I hear his songs like "Man in the Mirror", "Heal the World", "Earth Song", "You are Not Alone", "Black or White", "We are the World"..I can literally FEEL the words. I don't know how to describe it but I can just feel every note, every word, every tone that he sings. The harmony flows...straight into my heart.
Not only that..everytime a beggar comes around to beg for money while I'm eating I can't look them in the eye and say "go away". I don't have the heart to do that..although I know some of them were fakes. These days I feel as though I'm beginning to be too soft. I have this really aching feeling in my heart which makes me want to serve somewhere but I don't know where. It's killing me and the thoughts are overwhelming. My mind is just filled with it and I can't stop thinking about it. I recalled the dream I posted a few months ago about a child who wanted me to help her and....ARGH I DON'T KNOW. It's taking over my emotions because I feel as though I need to do something but I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. And I know that if I don't do it, I won't be happy with my life.
What the hell is going on.
