....that's what my parents used to tell me. Plus, I'm sure many of you heard it a thousand times before. 

A few months ago, a friend of mine was jokingly saying, "what if you get together with Chan Heng one day?"

I would shrug and laugh with this reply : "no wayyyy. That would never happen 'cause we are friends!!".

You see, I have this thing about dating friends..I am not used to the concept of dating someone I already consider as a friend. I don't know how to explain it....I'm just complicated like that. 

But then again, things aren't always what it seems to be..isn't it? It happened when he started showing that he actually cared for me..

In my mind I kept telling myself, "No. You cannot fall for him. He treats everyone nicely. It's not just you."

I've seen how he treated one of his close girl friend, which is also my friend by the name Yen with such care and they've remained just friends after so many years. He's the type of guy a girl calls, to tell her problems to and he's the type of guy who doesn't fall in love so easily with someone. I mean, he actually waited for a girl for 3 years. Imagine that.

Then, there was this day when I felt quite pissed at him for something. I don't know why I got so pissed I didn't want to talk to him so I basically ignored him the whole night. While we were all sitting down in a group at the restaurant, he became so silent. I've never seen him like that before. However, the egoistic me at the time decided to continue to ignore him and to continue talking to my other friends. I laughed and I played some board games with them, but I kept glancing at him from the corner of my eye. Everytime I saw him looking sad and quiet  I felt my heart break a little. I didn't know why. The only thing I could ask myself at that time was, "what's happening?". I thought I've managed to avoid feelings like these after all that has happened. I thought I've chained my heart once and for all. My love life was never a happy one.

When it was time to go home that night..he was supposed to fetch me home, but Rong Jiang offered to give me a ride home instead because he saw how we were being cold to each other the whole night. 

By the time I reached home, I made a decision to call him and to tell him that I was sorry for being such an emo bitch. And, for those of you who don't know, I am not a person who calls and apologizes to people. I've got such a high ego, I could compare it with a guy's. It's just that, at that point in time, I just felt like I had to because I couldn't stand seeing him that way. I didn't know why. I was staring at my cell phone for the longest time before I pressed the "dial" button. It rang a few times, and all of a sudden I saw the words "Call Ended" on my screen. That ticked me off so bad, I sent him a few icy cold messages in which he replied that he ended the call because our friends were asking him too many things at the same time and that he would call me back.   

When he called the first time, I ended it because I didn't feel like talking to him anymore. But somehow, I could never be too hard on him, so I answered the second time (quite zha dou, I know). We talked for an hour plus that night, all the while, he was making me laugh and soon, I forgot about all the "pissed" emotions I felt earlier. When our conversation ended and I clicked the phone off, I lied on my bed and wondered, what just happened. I knew then, that I have feelings of "like" for him.

Everything just flowed smoothly from there..and from the feelings of "like" I began to fall in love with him.

I love how he is so caring and so understanding. He is unlike any other guy I've ever been with and that makes him special. He is like my best friend whom I can talk to, and be comfortable with. I guess, the most important thing is that..I'm able to be myself while I'm with him. I can show him the sides of me that  no one knows. =)