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Saturday, May 30, 20097:01 PM
"Regina looks like a BITCH"

lol.

Ah, first impressions. Gotta love how it works eh?
Sometimes I do wonder how do people take in completely what they see and believe what they want to believe instead of getting to know the truth?

If you don't smile at everyone you see, you are "lansi".
If you do smile at everyone, you are "weird".
If you don't make friends, you are an "anti-social".
If you do make friends with a lot of people, you are "too sociable".
If you have more guy friends compared to girls, you are a "slut".
If you dress nicely, you are a "poser".
If you don't, you have no sense in "fashion".

Why do people make ASSUMPTIONS on people they don't even know?
Wait wait, let me think.

Am I supposed to make friends with EVERYONE?
Look, I'm a quality over quantity person, and sorry to say, yeah I do select my friends.
I would NOT even try to talk to people whom I know would not click with me. It's a natural instinct for me. I just know who I'll be able to talk to and who I won't be able to talk to.
Geddit? I mean, why should I try to establish superficial friendships anyway?
It's a mere waste of time.

I've said this loads of times before, I'm not here to please the world.
So if you have a problem with me, that's just too bad for you. There's nothing about me that I would change. :)
'cause while you're out there backstabbing me and all, I'm right on the other side having fun with my life.

I'm so sorry I can't be perfect like all you judgemental people out there yea?
Toodles, bitches.
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Friday, May 29, 200912:38 PM
*Chilhood memories. hahaha*

Finally, I've some time to type a proper post. :)

I'm no longer emo. I was being stupidly emo over stupid reasons.
Am back to normal now. I recover quite quickly, I must say. So proud of myself. nyahahaha. :p

Went for facial on Monday and my face became as red as a lobster after that. I looked like a friggin' monster. *gasp*
I hate looking at my face in the mirror after a facial. Sigh.

Am now at the process of "recovering". SIGGGHHH. No self confidence at all at the moment. It's at ZERO. :"(

Btw, I had my Jap oral test on Monday. Thank God it was easy.
Tonight I'll be going for the writing exam. Kinda scared 'cause I haven't started revising....yet. -.-

Gonna take a nap first. :D
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Wednesday, May 27, 200912:14 PM

You’re reachin’ out, and no one hears you cry
You’re freakin’ out again cause all your fears remind you..
Another dream has come undone
You feel so small and lost like you’re the only one.
You wanna scream, cause you’re desperate.

You want somebody, just anybody
To lay their hands on your soul tonight
You want a reason to keep believin
That some day you’re gonna see the light

You’re in the dark there’s no one left to call
And sleep’s you’re only friend, but even sleep can’t hide you
From all those tears and all the pain
And all the days you waste pushin’ them away
It’s your life it’s time you face it

You want somebody, just anybody
To lay their hands on your soul tonight
You want a reason to keep believin’
That some day you’re gonna see the light
Cause you’re desperate
Desperate
Cause you’re desperate now

You know the things have gotta change
You can’t go back, you find a way
And day by day, you start to come alive

You want somebody, just anybody
To bring some peace to your soul tonight
You want a reason to keep believin’
That some day you’re gonna see the light

You want somebody, just anybody
To lay their hands on your soul tonight
You want a reason to keep believin’
That some day you’re gonna see the light..
Cause you’re desperate
Desperate
Cause you’re desperate tonight
Oh desperate
So desperate tonight
Tonight (tonight)

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Sunday, May 24, 20094:31 PM
Cuti-Cuti Malaysia

I feel as though I'm on a holiday spree, visiting the Malaysian tourist "attraction" areas.
The ever so happening Yen decided that we should go to Bukit Tinggi a.k.a. Colmar Tropicale (NOT the Aeon Bukit Tinggi Jusco @ Klang) to hang out.
The thing is; she organised it, but she didn't know how to get there, how much the entrance fee costs, what time it opens and what time it closes (same case as Malacca).
It was a very "zha dou" moment when halfway through the journey Boon asked our car to lead instead. As usual.. Chan Heng claims he knows but he doesn't. :p

Okay, should start from the beginning of the day (Saturday May 23rd).
Yen picked me up from my house at around 8.45am, and decided to put the blame of being late on me. Sigh.
I decided to doll up because it's been a long time since I actually wore nicely. Been too lazy these days.
Most of the time I would just wear a cap and put on some boring clothes when I go out cuz I'm too lazy to blow dry my hair, find my clothes, etc etc.
Old already.
What can I say, I'm supposed to be in my "20s" soon (at the moment I'm still 20 ok). sien. :(

ANYWAY, back to the story: we finally arrived at Boon's place at 9.10am+ and went to Ming Tien for breakfast.
I can't recall the time we started our journey to Bukit Tinggi.
Wasn't looking at the time.

Was too bored in the car so me, Kerrine and Yen started taking loads of photos. Will not post all of it 'cause it's too many.
I prefer my left face compared to my right face. I should wear a mask similar to that of the one in "Phantom of The Opera" which covers the other side of the face.

When we arrived at Bukit Tinggi, our first stop was at the Japanese Tea Garden.
Btw, the entrance fee to Bukit Tinggi is RM10 per person (adult).

It was blazing hot that day. So much for hoping I could enjoy some cool air on the hill.

Stepping on that rock without my shoes felt good though. :)
I like the sound of the running mountain river..it's very relaxing. Fernie helped out with this picture..and I think it's really beautiful (I'm talking about the surrounding). She was able to capture the water beautifully.. the trees looked majestic, the ray of sunshine are shining at the right areas and it just has the whole "foresty", serene feel about it. The man in blue on the left kinda ruined it though. Should've cropped him out. haha. No wait, I think I kinda ruined the atmosphere too. The picture would've looked better without any human in it.

Ok, can you see the little hut behind me?
It was actually a cam-whore area. haha

Where us girls pretended to be "cute" and "Japanese-y".

We even found this superb spot for them to pretend to be in jail.
Look at their facial expressions, they're goooodd at acting. haha.
Except for Jaynee who looks much too happy to be in jail. :p

Group picture~!

While waiting for the shuttle back to the French Village, Jaynee, Chan Heng, Geng Jie and Chee Wee decided to walk because they were tired of waiting (after 45 minutes).
Me, being the "smart" girl who wore heels on the day preferred to wait than to walk back because it was quite a distance!

By the time we reached the French Village, we were dead hungry.
So, we ordered this giant pizza which was almost as big as the table.
May look small in the picture, but trust me, it was big.
The downside was the price of a bottle of water which was at RM4.60 per bottle. It's probably more expensive than the ones at Genting?

Chan Heng was "pissed" so he said we should finish the whole bottle of Tabasco sauce (my fav sauce for Pizza).
The lady gave us a completely new bottle and we managed to finish it.
Tada~!
Empty bottle. :p

--> the amount of Tabasco sauce I poured on Chan Heng's pizza just to make sure the last drop of sauce oozes out. haha.

After lunch, we began to walk aimlessly around.
On the way to the clock tower we came across the children's play room.
Ah, childhood memories. :)
There are pictures of us in the "colourful ball" area as well, but it isn't in my cam, so I'll just wait for it. ;)
Me and the cutey Kerrine :)

Me and pretty Jaynee ;)

When we were done cam-whoring at the children's play area, we went up to the clock tower, watched some people play games..went down to the pool side the chill out and finally, headed back down for some bah kut teh at PJ.
I still prefer Klang Bah Kut Teh though........

Upon the completion of our dinner, we were wondering if we should go for a movie.
But, I felt kinda lazy so I asked them to come over to my house for a movie instead.
Watched Apocalypto (old movie) because I haven't watched it although the dvd has been in my house for ages. Was too afraid..sigh. I'm such a chicken when it comes to watching horror/gruesome movies :/

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Well, overall it was a fun day and the above post sounds like I'm happy the whole time but..


I don't know why I was just kinda down on that day. Was it just the pms? or was there something more?..
I tried to laugh, I tried to joke and fool around, I tried being my usual crazy self but I just couldn't enjoy myself fully. Even Yen asked me in the car "are you Regina? why so quiet wan?".

There's so many things going through my mind right now..

All I can say is..

Sometimes it is tough to laugh knowing that your heart is tearing,
Sometimes it is tough to smile knowing that you aren't happy,
Sometimes it is tough to pretend to be alive knowing that you're dying inside..
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Thursday, May 21, 20096:57 PM
I'm supposed to do a pair assignment with Yen for PR and we're required to evaluate some company's website in terms of PR : the types of PR tools used, etc etc.
Don't know why, but I came across LG. I asked Yen about it and she agreed.
But that isn't the point.

The thing is, I merely glanced through the website yesterday thinking I've seen everything (as usual, I was just plain lazy) and today, I sounded like an effin bimbo.
I actually said "what if there are no PR tools used on the website??"
The lecturer went kinda blur... "are you sure??"
Me : uh, I think so.

Came back and check the LG Malaysia website all over again to make sure and I realised that there's a video on a "Health Plus" air conditioner on the bottom left corner with SOUNDS (1 of the PR tools used), Press Releases on charity and some stuff about playing fair with handicaps (another PR tool), LG Malaysia in Support of Earth Hour (PR tool), Press Room: LG Lights up Christmas for Orphans (PR tool), Exbitions and Events (PR tool), Social Commitment by LG (PR tool), Sponsorship (PR tool) and LOADS more.

Shiat.
Lesson learned : ALWAYS CHECK and get your facts right before saying stuff in order to avoid looking like a moron.
This is so ironic, I hate people asking stupid questions but I'm doing it myself. wth? NOO. Balasan ke? :(

p.s.: I saw him today...
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Wednesday, May 20, 200910:03 PM
Today I had a very productive day!
It's been quite some time since I actually had a productive day 'cause most of the days I'm just lazing around, or repeating the same mundane tasks of the day. pfft.

So anyway, I had 4 hours break today and Yen was going to KL for a restock on some stuff for her blogshop. I wanted to go with her, but after thinking carefully, I figured I better not 'cause she would probably take a really long time to pick out her stuff.
Instead of going with her, I went with Chan Heng to Sungei Wang.
And get this: we went to KL, shopped at Sungei Wang and bought our stuff in less than 2 hours!

It's like, RECORD BREAKING. wow.
Not only that, when we reached Subang, we stopped by Parade 'cause I forgot I needed to go to the Body Shop to purchase my make up remover.

After shopping at KL + Parade, we still had an hour+ left to laze around. haha.
Ate some chicken rice at Asia, went online at SAO and finally went for class (I was early for class. Not bad ay?).
[All within 4 hours. So peeps, if you have 4 hours of break, you could actually do ALOT of stuff! Don't waste your time just lazing around SS15. hahaha]

=)

p.s.: Chan Heng Likes Barbie Perfumes. LOL
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Sunday, May 17, 20095:02 PM
Got this forwarded email from Fernie.
Found it quite hilarious so I decided to share it here. :)
Some people are just sooo free. haha

INTI POEM (OLD VERSION)

At first I love INTI
But INTI loves my money
I ask money from daddy
But daddy asks mummy
Mummy goes to INTI
And find out why INTI's so greedy
The lift always mati
And the guards look like monkey
That's why I started to hate INTI
INTI don't love me
What for I love INTI
All they need is money
Nothing but money, money and money
The lecturers teach like bugs bunny
No wonder they're so lousy
And their faces look so funny
Like Talos the mummy
Futhermore, more more money flows to INTI
But they never plant more trees
All because they want to save money
Make all students feel hot to mati
First I entered INTI I got no kaki
Later I found someone likes to play tai tee
Then I started don't want to study
Here we can find a lot of kaki judi
That's why we must blame INTI
Since I entered INTI I cant see any leng lui lili sexy
Even the lecturers are more pretty
I always want to date them for tea
But I always kejar they always lari
Dr. Lim from SOLLA always lan si
People said his pucuk already mati
Even Viagra also tak boleh jadi
That's why loh people say he is 'cc'
He likes to tell jokes to everybody
But his joke never funny
Sometimes people thinks that his crazy
Dr. Lim so pity
INTI's toilets really smelly
No water no api
Even you haven't pee
You want to lari
Always complain they also say soli soli
Tan yew sing always said his INTI got quality
Instead everyone knows they are lousy
INTI motive just to earn more money
So that they can pay lecturers salary
And INTI share in KLSE can naik lagi
Waterfish like us always press by INTI
Just to tipu more more money
That is all the story about INTI
Which loves money
But after all I still come to INTI
To contribute money
(u r not in INTI?
u r very lucky
coz INTI cant bluff ur money
just cabut n jangan kembali~!!)
Student of INTI
noway to lari
already jadi SuiYee (waterfish)
plz tell everybody
jangan kena tipu lagi


=========================================
THE NEW INTI POEM

TO WHOEVER WHO WROTE THAT OLD VERSION,

Izzit you too sien adi with INTI?
Maybe coz you never ever study
Always shake leg and "wah pei si" (digging nose)
24/7 at CC play DOTA or L4D

U say ask money from daddy
daddy ask you ask mommy
at last work so hard to support you already
WHAT U DID?? Yaya write sohai stuff about INTI
you nothing better to do ar really?!

You say INTI lift always mati
you KING KONG ar kenot walk, too heavy?
if INTI guard look like monkey
you look like more like "yat pek si" (a piece o shit)

and so you say "INTI don't love me" (right!)
coz you really "mou yok yi" (cureless)
so no matter how u mati-mati
your results FOREVER E E E!
All they need is money (yes)
Well, thanks to you idiots pay money but never study

The lecturers teach like bugs bunny
Sumore you say they so lousy
MAYBE its because u never ever listen properly
sit behind there talk cock story!

U complain complain INTI no tree
All because they want to save money
YOU LEH? throw rubbish sana-sini
Sit in room play game tak pernah mandi
You don't feel hot oso smelly until mati!

Told you already u only know how to waste money
Parents give u money but you play tai tee
Own self say don't want to study, Blame INTI.
Of coz la you forever kaki judi
Coz you got no life, no job, no money.
WHOLE COLLEGE LIFE WASTED IN INTI!

Since u entered INTI you can't see any leng lui lili sexy
You very lengzhai ar that girls want to see?
Look at ur face oso all want to barf and flee
No wonder you no luck, forever "ta fei ji" (jerking off)

FIRST you say lecturer like bugs bunny
THEN you say u want to date them for tea
U really 1500% gila babi
Hopeless, useless, something problem with your psychology!

Dr. Lim from SOLLA always lan si?
You jealous ar coz he got money drive Benz-si
How you all know his pucuk mati already?
You gay tards got actually see??
I think its YOUR small koochi size that you should worry
Yucks, yerr, bluek, petoooi.... YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE......

Tan Yew Sing always said his INTI got quality
You know but then you don't agree
So its either your parents or you yourself gila babi
You think like that, then WHAT THE F**K you doing in INTI???

INTI motive just to earn more money
OF COZ LAR U THINK BUSINESS IS CHARITY??
IF THEY DON'T PAY LECTURERS, WHO GOING TO TEACH YOU ABC?
you're not a waterfish larh, YOU'RE A BIG DUMB WUSSY!

INTI SHARE IN KLSE can naik lagi
now sumore partner with Laureate group of university
too bad you're no longer here to see
better off without you monkeys here in this community
good that you cabut lari,
I BEG YOU PLEASEEE JANGAN KEMBALI!


students of INTI noway to lari
Coz here too happening with clubs and society
already pay money might as well happy happy.
No need to write stupid things about INTI

If you so good write poems better go be an MC
Don't mess with PROUD INTI students like me
So far come all the way,wa ipoh mali
We all know at the end we still love INTI!

To the fellow who disgraced us all from INTI,
Lets see you beat this rhyme at any angle or degree.
For those of you who agree with me.
God bless you,
forward this,
its your call now,
I'M OUTTEY!!
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Saturday, May 16, 200911:21 AM
Swimming again~ This time it was (+) Boon (-) Chee Wee and (+) alot of other classmates. :)

The first time we went swimming we went without Boon 'cause he was working at Johor. So Fernie made a promise to him that we would go again, just for him!

However, I didn't know if I should go 'cause my Japanese class is from 7.45-9.05pm on Friday. I was able to make it previously because it was labour day, thus a public holiday. I didn't have my class then.

SO, instead of doing the whole "inni mini miny mo"(if you don't know this, you have a sad sad childhood. haha! This is like the WEAPON to "tembak" answers in exams during high school) thing, I made a bet with Boon.
I told him "IF you come for the 8AM class today, I will go"
That's 'cause it's extremely rare to see him in the morning. He's like a bat who sleeps when the sun comes out and wakes up when everyone else is asleep.

I reached to class at about 8.05am yesterday and Geng Jie was telling me, "aiya, you no need to go already"
When SUDDENLY to my amazement he came at 8.15am. omg. Pigs are flying :p

Needless to say, I kept my promise and went. ;)
(skipped my Japanese class because of you..)
I'm such a good friend. nyahahahaha. :D

Chan Heng picked me up at about 7.45pm.
And get this, it's super hilarious: we parked outside the condo..went down and started calling our friends because we didn't know what's the condo unit number. The guards were being a pain, and in the end, they requested for Chan Heng's driving license.
While we were walking in I felt something was amidst.
The walkway didn't look the same...I didn't remember the guard house looking like that...etc etc.
Finally Chan Heng said "eh?! This is NOT the condo!!"

#*^!@#*^@! Damn embarassing. I dashed out without looking at the guards.


Finally, we reached the condo successfully at 8pm+

Boon, me and Meryll (which was mine for the night. hahaha)!
Sounds kinda wrong.

Group picture. I don't know why I looked like I was crying for help with both my hands lifted high.
Some Amithaba pose. lol

There were a few classmates there whom I know..but haven't really talked to them.
Shall try to recall their names (forgive me if I spell it wrongly!)
*Wei Jheng, JR + his gf, Min Ho, Ming Ser, Ee Lyn, Cheryl, Chong Tat, William*

I like this picture but Chan Heng totally spoilt it. rofl

Was attempting to be a water ballerina but I failed. :(

Oh oh!
While we were waiting for the rest to change and get ready for dinner, Fernie walked out with a black panty-looking thing in her hand.
She asked: WHO left their panties?!
Everyone's expression : uh, ew, no

Chan Heng : *puzzled expression* omg, I think it's mine *starts searching his wet pants* Oh yea it's mine!

This was a random shot. LOL

After that, we went to William's for a quick dinner.
I've NEVER gone to William's before, and oh my, the portion is HUGE!
The food was so-so. Nothing too spectacular.

At first, we wanted to watch Angels and Demons at 11.50pm but, it was FULL. I really want to watch that movie. :(

Since it was full, we watched Mongol instead.
It was about the rise of Genghis Khan.

I remembered reading about Genghis Khan before but I couldn't really recall the whole story about him.
Boon asked : so how he died ah?

In my mind : ???? forgot

I don't remember reading about his death.


Being unsatisfied with my own answer, I dug up the book and checked.

Ok, so now I remember why I didn't know how he died.

It was Because: The reason of his death was uknown.

-_________-

Basically the whole story revolves around Genghis Khan (duh), from his childhood 'till the day he started building his large empire.

People who do no like history would not like this movie.
I kinda like it though. :)

However, there are loads of room for improvement.
For example: the battle scenes are cut short halfway, the scenes tends to change alot and they should show how he conquered different parts of the world instead of emphasizing too much on his "lower" days.
I mean, he was one of the greatest leader of all time, but they didn't really potray him as he should be.
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Thursday, May 14, 20095:45 PM
I was listening to the song "Purest of Pain - Son By Four" a few days ago and I suddenly recalled the piano at home which has been abandoned for years.
So..I decided to try playing it again.
Well, I can't believe I could still play songs like Purest of Pain, Theme of Swan Lake, Reason (Theme of Autumn in My Heart), Romeo & Juliet's theme...etc etc. Happiness!
I thought I would've forgotten everything by now.. :/


I know..this is such a meaningless post.
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Tuesday, May 12, 200910:55 PM
While youtube surfing about a week ago, I found this amazing guitar playing Korean kid by the name Sungha Jung.
He plays the guitar using the "finger style" which is supposedly very difficult to play even for adults.

In the video below, he's playing "More than Words". It's special 'cause he was able to play the rhythm and the melody at the same time.
Most people would either play only the rhythm or only the melody.
I think he's awesomely talented for a kid.



And these two would probably be my favourite:

1. Pirates Of The Carribean Theme



2. Craig Dobbins - Through The TEARS (I felt so touched listening to this)

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Monday, May 11, 200911:11 PM


I saw this and started tearing all over again.
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8:50 PM
4 years+ ago my dad bought a baby iguana from the Pet Safari at Ikano..
When we brought him home, he was so hyper..running around like...a kid?
He had the most beautiful bright green skin. So we called him Greeny.
At first I was quite afraid to touch and to hold him because he seemed like a lizard..
but there was this one time, I brought him to college (Metro) for my english presentation.
We were required to present a methodical process of something.
I don't know why, but I chose the topic "How to Tame an Iguana"
On the day of my presentation I was pretty anxious because I would have to carry the iguana around the whole day.
I began wondering if I'll receive a few scratch and bite marks by the time I reached home.
But I learnt that I was so terribly wrong.
The moment I held him, I could feel that he wouldn't be harmful. I was expecting him to be cold and slimy..but..he was so warm and gentle.
Whenever I stroked his head gently he would close his eyes...I remember telling myself "I didn't know an iguana could look so cute.."

However..I noticed that..When girls saw him, their usual response would be "ew....that's disgusting".

And I really hate that.
I hate it when some of my parents friends come by our house for a visit and say things like like "eh? that thing haven't die yet ah? so geli. eee"
I'd feel like giving a tight slap across their face and tell them "his life has got nothing to do with your well being so just shut up"

I noticed that the iguana could actually recognise people.
Or more importantly, he recognised..me.
Everytime I came home, he would be climbing up the cage to where I was and I would pat his head like how I would pat my dog.
He would respond with the usual closing of the eyes as though he's enjoying my touch..which makes me go "aww.."

But..the past few days I began notice some changes in him.
He didn't climb around as he usually did when he saw me..he would just lay there.
He arms and legs would move once in a while but he didn't really made much movements.
I told me dad (technically, the iguana belongs to him) to bring him to the vet..but he disagreed.
I told my mom..if we could bring him to the vet and my mom said the vet would usually only treat dogs, cats and furry animals.
Obviously I didn't believe her. I'm not that dumb.
But the both of them agreed that taking the iguana to the vet would be a waste of money.
They probably only saw him as another lizard-looking-thing with no emotions.

So..for the past few days..I witnessed his passing..
he began to grow weaker day by day..
his eyes were always either closed..or half closed.
2 days ago when his eyes were half closed, I actually stared and him and told him..
"can you see me?..please hold on..don't die..please.."
I don't know what I was doing talking to an animal like that but I just didn't want him to go.

I googled about iguana illness and how to cure it..but almost all my findings resulted in the same answer, "bring it to the vet because it is serious".

This evening, my dad suddenly came up to me and told me that the iguana has died.
I ran downstairs and saw his cage in the middle of the garden.
Instead of the bright green he used to be...the skin colour which covered his whole body was...brown.
I was beginning to give up hope when all of a sudden I saw his head moving a little and there were little gasps of breathing.
It was difficult for him but he was still breathing!!
He was looking at me..and I could feel that he was conveying the message..saying "I'm sorry..I can't do this anymore.."
I didn't want to believe it..I kept believing that he would survive no matter what.
So, I ran up and told my dad "the iguana is still alive!"
but my dad insisted it was dead and even if it is not dead it was going to die anyway.
I went back downstairs and I saw my maid carrying the iguana, putting him in a plastic bag and taking him away.
......I couldn't help him.
My parents didn't want the iguana to die in the house because they didn't want any infections to be passed on.
It's so cruel.....why are they so cruel to him?..

I went back into my room and started sobbing like a child.
Everything kept going through my mind.
Things like, how he wasn't appreciated by so many despite being so beautiful.
He was such a beautiful creature but many people always turned away in disgust.
Why?
It was so unfair.
Even towards his dying days he couldn't go in peace.
I feel so terrible...I'm a horrible person..I told him not to go and even when he was trying to hold on, I didn't do enough to help him..to keep him alive.

I wish I could hold him again like I did, I wish I could turn back time and take care of him better.
I wish his life didn't end like this..

If I had one last thing I could say to him and if he could understand me..I would say this:

I'm so sorry..if animals who dies goes to heaven, I'm sure you will be in heaven...and your beauty will be appreciated there. It's better than being on earth where all the ruthless good for nothing idiots condemn you just because you are not the stereotyped "cute" animal. You were the best, smartest, cutest,tamest iguana I've ever seen and touched. I hope you will be at peace.

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To those who thinks that there is no possible way anyone could have a connection with an iguana, please, re-think again.
So what if an iguana looks like a lizard?
It's still a living thing.
and if people could have wonderful connections with dogs, cats, rabbits, monkeys, etc.
Why not an iguana?
Trust me, iguanas do have emotions.
Or at least mine did. I could see it, and I could feel it...


-RIP Greeny-
Goodbye..
..I will miss you so much
:'(



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Sunday, May 10, 20092:36 PM

My mom came to KL with my dad many years ago, rented a small room together and had so little money to spend, they had to give up alot of their "wants". They could only buy what they needed to survive.
She told me, her first job's salary was RM300...a month.
It was tough.
But, when I was born, my parents did everything necessary to provide everything for me.
Up 'till now, I can see that my mom only wants what's best for us.
She is the kind of person who wouldn't think about herself, but for others instead.
When we go shopping together, she would always end up buying things for me and my sisters and none for herself.
Coming from a poor background, my mom never had the chance to go through uni.
She loved studying but never got the chance to pursue it.
But, she constantly worked hard to achieve her success which we are enjoying today.
She made me believe that we shouldn't complain about hardships and there isn't a reason to give up.
Because..although she went through so much..she never complained. Not even once.

This is why, I've made a promised to myself.
That I would live my life well and I would study well.
On my graduation day, I want my mother to know that I am not studying only for myself..but for her too.
For all the things she went through, for all her dreams that she had given up for our sake, I want her to be happy that it hasn't gone to waste.

My mom isn't just a mother.
She is my protector, my counselor and my strength.
She is indeed..a superwoman :)

I thank God for sending me to her because there is not one thing I would change about her existence in this family.

So, on this special day, I would like to honour my mom and to wish her..

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY :)

I love you mommy. Always and forever.
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Saturday, May 9, 20094:54 PM
It's been Awhile....
..since I applied the liquid eye liner.
My hands were kinda UN-steady. I felt like a noob learning how to apply it all over again.

Anyways, I'll be blogging differently today. Instead of blogging in various paragraphs, I'm going to use the numeric system.

...'cause I'm just too lazy to string out proper sentences today.

1. My Iguana is ill....I blame the stupid weather ="(
2. Have to begin revising for my subjects starting from now
3. Alot of assignments...sigh.
4. Joined/accepted to the choir ministry in church
5. Feel very lazy these days
6. Should stop playing brainless games on Facebook
7. *brain is empty at the moment*


Shall go to sleep early tonight *yawns*
Toodles~ :)
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Wednesday, May 6, 20097:39 PM
David Archuleta : You Can

Take me where I've never been
Help me on my feet again
Show me that good things come to those who wait
Tell me I'm not on my own
Tell me I won't be alone
Tell me what I'm feeling isn't some mistake
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Baby, when you look at me
Tell me what do you see
Are these the eyes of someone you could love?
'Cause everything that brought me here
Well, now it all seems so clear
Baby, you're the one that I've been dreaming of
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love

Only you can take me sailing in your deepest eyes
Bring me to my knees and make me cry
And no one's ever done this
Everything was just a lie and I know, yes, I know

This is where it all begins
So tell me it will never end
I can't fool myself, it's you and no one else

If I could wish upon tomorrow tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Show me that good things come to those who wait..

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I'm so in love with this song at the moment. :)
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Monday, May 4, 20092:50 PM

Malacca Trip [3 May 09]
On Friday Yen suggested to go for a trip to Malacca before our classes officially begin (today).
It's been awhile since I went to Malacca so I agreed to go with her.

Left Subang at about 10am+ with Yen+bf+extra baggage (Chan Heng). lol.
The funny thing was..no one really knew the way to Malacca! Weird, I know.
But I feel exceptionally happy with myself because I was able to bring them around although I didn't know the road. Ah, my intuition is always right. hehehe.

Our first stop was at Jonker Street.
Spotted this huge pineapple tart and decided to take a pic with it.

It's edible! I touched it and almost ate it. But I controlled myself.
The weather was SO hot, I had to get an umbrella.
However, instead of the usual umbrella I decided to get those which existed during the OLDEN days. I got it in pink while Yen bought a red one.

Boys lookin' cute with the girly umbrellas.

And us girls lookin' even cuter. hahahaha
As usual Yen was hungry 24/7..
we decided to go from some chicken ball rice since Malacca's famous for that.
I still have no idea what's so good about the chicken ball rice cause it's just chicken rice..with the rice served in the shape of a ball. -_____-

Balls chicken rice.
Took a walk along the street and we came across this weird looking statue.
I was so excited while we're walking along the street because there were so many antiques!
Was very attracted to this shop which sells hand-made lotus shoes.
But...each pair costs RM95. With the glass casing, it would cost up to RM125.
I was seriously about to go back there to purchase it when I came across a pair of lotus shoes in another antique shop. Will talk more about that later.

After a walk along the street, we reached Stadhuys..the symbol of Malacca.
No Malacca trip would be complete without the picture with the red building. haha.

Doing some weird poses. hahaha.
Realised that there was something wrong with my belt. It was too loose.

Weird posing with the hole. I had no idea what it was called, so I named it The Hole.
We took a group picture with an albino snake as well, but I don't have it in my cam 'cause the dude took it for us and I got it printed.

Stopped by a dessert shop where I ordered durian cendol, and Yen ordered gula Melaka cendol.
We were supposed to SHARE the cendol, but in the end I ate up all the durian cendol because Yen didn't like the smell, Chan Heng was supposedly allergic (but took a few spoon full) while Yen's bf was totally shy.

Discovered a huge ass lollipop in the shop.
I think it would take MONTHS for me to finish a lollipop as huge as that. omg.

By 4pm+ I was pestering them to go back to the shop which sells lotus shoes because they told me that their closing time was at 5.30pm.
On the way back, we stopped by this antique shop.
The grandmothers there were the friendliest grandmothers ever~!
Instead of the RM95 lotus shoes, they were selling it at RM45 (shoes+glass casing).
Although it wasn't handmade..I thought it was worth buying since it would only be placed as a display item. It looked like the RM95 ones to me. Apart from the different design of course. The RM95 ones had more embroidery on it.
Btw, if you don't know what lotus shoes are..it's the name of the shoes girls with binded feet used to wear in China.
I bought a pair in black with red embroidery. :)

Saw this really OLD phone in the grandma's shop and they were so nice to allow us to take a picture with it. Most of the shops there had the "no picture taking" sign.

By the time we went back to our car after circling jonker street, we were perspiring like crazy 'cause the sun was so intense!
The next destination was the Ship Museum.
RM 3 per entry and Chan Heng said "wah so expensive?" hahaha.

There's nothing much in the museum..so I guess we just got our RM3's worth.

The aircond was lovely though!




Almost 90% of my pictures are credited to Chan Heng. haha.

Around the evening, we stopped by Newton for our dinner..and walked around Malacca's Mega Mall for awhile.
Spotted this wide open field so we "lepak-ed" around there 'cause we were kinda tired.
Tired/stoning face. haha.

Left Malacca around 8.45pm+ and jammed all the way back. -.-
By the time I reached home I was so DAMMNN tired.

Class was at 10am today..
I'm still tired but I can't sleep 'cause I'm supposed to do my Market Research presentation soon..gotta prepare. sigh. :(

I almost FORGOT one IMPORTANT event of the day at Malacca.
CHAN HENG GOT MOLESTED by some baba nonya uncle at a shop along Jonker Street.
Dudes, BEWARE.
Chan Heng got his ass smacked. HAHAHA
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Saturday, May 2, 20095:34 PM
It's been such a long time since I last went for a swim. haha
Met up with the classmates at Jaynee's place at about 7pm and I must say, her condo's very beautiful!
I love her pool. It's sooo romantic at night. :)

Btw, I prefer swimming at night.
Me and the cutey Emery~~
Seriously so cutteee~~~ :p

Group picture (Without Yen because she was SO LATE~!)
Yen arrived at about 8pm+..but she did do a good deed by buying us some mee goreng. haha
Oh yea, balancing in the water wasn't easy. While we were posing for the picture above, all of us felt like we're gonna fall over or something.

So we took another normal picture without the leg action. X)

Yen (finally arrived) me and Meryll. :)

While we were in the pool we played some water games..haha
Very impromptu because it just happened.
One of it was the usual "holding the breath under water" competition which I didn't participate in because..the water was kinda dirty that day..too many people were using it before us..I didn't want to put my face it it. haha.
The other game was..."walking" in the water from one end to the other.
At one point it was a mini competition between Emery/Chee Wee vs Me/Chan Heng.
Me and Emery were supposed to hang on to the guys shoulders while they walked.
(I actually did that in the first place because I was too lazy to walk back.lol)
One of the scary games we played was to sit on the guy's shoulders while they walked in the water from one end to the other.
I was so afraid of falling over because it felt so unstable. =/

SHOCKING FACT: Emery was able to carry CHAN HENG on her shoulders in the water. Let me tell you this, although the water's supposed to decrease the weight, you'd still be able to feel it. And..omg I can't believe Emery could walk with such STABILITY with Chan Heng on her shoulders. Now, that's what an ant carrying a rock of sugar would look like if ants were human!

After swimming we were sooo hungry we decided to head for Ming Tien at SS2.
At MT, there was this whole "who can eat the super spicy taiwan sausage" "challenge". hahaha.
And this is Chan Heng looking exceptionally perverted that night:
ANNDD...after dinner we decided to hop over to 1u for a movie.
However, it seemed like almost all the movies were taken except Wolverine and Bohsia (which I will never watch even if it's free).
So, about half of them decided to go home (because they've watched Wolverine) while Yen&her bf, me, Chan Heng, Fernie, Meryll and RJ went for Wolverine.
YES, I watched it AGAIN. muahahaha.

It was a fun night. ;)
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Friday, May 1, 200912:12 PM
This is a post I planned to write a long time ago but never got the time to do it. :)

I'm sure many of you have heard of Susan Boyle who sang "I Dreamed a Dream by Les Miserables" at 2009's Britain's Got Talent.

Here's the lyrics:
I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high,
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving.

Then I was young and unafraid
When dreams were made and used,
And wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung,
No wine untasted.

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hopes apart
As they turn your dreams to shame.

And still I dream he'll come to me
And we will live our lives together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms
We cannot weather...

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seems
Now life has killed
The dream I dreamed.


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People have been arguing..."is she famous because of the way she look?"
"does she really sound as fantastic as people say she is?"

In my opinion, it is related to the way she look.
If you take a look at the youtube video [CLICK] , you'd see that the moment she steps out, alot of people started groaning..rolling their eyes..and..well you know, giving the whole "omg, here we go again. Another superstar wannabe" kinda face.
But..when she started singing, you know that she is singing sincerely from her heart..she sounded like an angel to me. All her emotions which have been bottled up for so long, just seemed to flow freely from her and this in turn, has touched the hearts of many people from across the world.

The thing is, she was real.
Real in the sense of appearance and in her actions. Because, let's face it, not everyone looks/acts like the "people" in magazines or tv.
Her approach seemed to connect with alot of people and..well, people loved her for that. There isn't any inferiority complex.

There's this old phrase which has been repeated time and time again.."Don't judge a book by its cover".
And this certainly shows why we shouldn't. Sometimes a light can shine from the darkest areas and when it does, it shines the brightest.

I know that to certain girls, the appearance is one of the major factor in life.
Some people have asked, "are looks really that important?"
My answer is:
It is partially important because people do judge others based on the appearance before they get to know you. Humans are made that way. However, it is definitely not the most important.
If I had a choice to choose between two things to have in life : beauty or a wonderful personality, I would choose the latter.
Beauty is something anyone can achieve. Plastic surgery can turn everyone into a "swan", or so to speak. But, personality is something inside of you. It is something special in you which no one else can help you with, apart from yourself.
Have you ever come across some people whom at first you thought "wow, she's so pretty/he's so handsome" but..when you get to know them..and noticed that they've got a rotten personality, your perception would change to.. "she's not that pretty after all/he's not as handsome as I thought he was"?
As far as I know, this has occured to me wayy too many times.
This is why, to me, a person's personality is more important than any other attributes, surpassing the outward appearances.

People I admire aren't famous actors or actresses, but, they are people who served and leaved a legacy. People who have impacted the world.

Which one of them were famous for their looks?
Just to name a few: Albert Einstein (I'm serious, I was watching his documentary for a few hours the other day on the History Channel), Evita (she was a strong and determined woman), Mother Teresa (a person who had so much love and compassion for others).

So here's something for you to ponder upon:)
Looks will definitely fade away someday.
When it is gone, who will you become?..
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