Decided to take the time to actually express my feelings about work and such. Noticed that lately my posts were becoming too general..mostly day-to-day activities I've been doing and nothing about what I really think. I miss that. I miss pouring out in my blog.

The thing is, after I began working, I realised a lot of things. I have been so complacent with where I am, what I've done and all that, I didn't really push myself anymore. Another thing. I feel restricted because when I say things, I've to always make sure that I say things which are politically correct in order to protect myself and to not create a bad image...etc etc.. It's all so new to me and I'm still learning. I wanna get more in-touch my "professional self" which was supposedly in existence during interviews. lol. It's in me, I just have to bring it out more often I guess. =)

Other than that, At times I feel really stupid because I ask people things that are so simple. I'm not used to that. Not used to feeling so completely stupid and utterly useless. It's like I don't have a clue.

And, I realised that all of a sudden I have a tendency to forget A LOT of things. I never experienced that before too. Because, most of the time, I DON'T forget. I hate it when someone asks me something and I'd be all... "huh??" What's wrong with my memory now?! =(

I'm not saying that it's not fun working, it's just that. These little things sometimes gets in the way from my full potential. I know very well that I can do better..but it's like I'm only half functioning at the moment. My brains just gotten a kickstart again after being un-used for approximately 6 months plus. Urgh.

Thank God I have a wonderful mentor though. =)

p.s.: Maybelline's a really good brand to work with for the first 3 months of my marketing attachment because I'm forced to learn and to learn fast. haha. I'm amazed.