Regina Speaks

Saturday, November 7, 20092:45 PM

::GRADUATION::
[Finally]

After 4 years of toiling in my Foundation Studies and Degree in Marketing, I can finally say that I am officially a Graduate! The convocation was located at Nilai Inti yesterday. The group photos were taken at 8.45am-10am while the graduation ceremony itself started approximately 10.30am. I was so dead sleepy because I woke up at 6am and I slept quite late the night before due to...a letter I was writing to my bf. hahaha. I'm quite corny. :)

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Me and my parents left the house at 6.45am to pick him (CH) up. We followed the map..and guess what we saw! A really bad accident. A car skidded and it hit some thick pillar or something. The driver's seat was totaled and there were so many on-lookers. That's why people, don't try to be a hero and speed when it's raining. You're just looking for trouble. Not only are you endangering your own life, you're endangering the public around you.Tsk.

Anyway, we reached early, registered, and the lady told me that my skirt was too short. haha. I manged to cover it up with the super long graduation gown though. :p

The formal group pictures and ceremony pictures were taken by an official photographer so I don't really have those pictures with me..gotta collect it first. In the mean time, here are the after-ceremony pictures! :)

My mom and dad are no doubt, the best parents in the world. I love them so much because without them, I would have never been able to be there. Not only did they sacrifice their money to send me to Uni, they sacrificed their time too. My dad used to send me and fetch me everyday from college for 4 years. Yeap, imagine that. He did that because he knew that parking in SS15 was really difficult to find. I mean, yea I did drive occasionally but he was the one who was always sending and fetching me to and fro. Not only that, sometimes when I get frustrated with my assignments and stuff, they were the ones who comforted me and gave me ideas. I learned alot from them. My mom is the business-minded person while my dad is the creative-guy. I have the best of both worlds. This graduation is not only for me, it is for them too. My first class Hons are dedicated to my loving parents who were always there to guide and to support me no matter what. :)

Other than that, I just want to say..life in college has been filled with so many challenges..so many emotions and so many complicated things. I've met friends who were nice and so-called friends who just want to use people. I remember those fun days in my Foundation program in Metro with the group of friends I had..we used to go out for lunches together in big groups, hang out at the pool area in Asia Cafe and at times we'd just sit around in college in talk. Those were the days filled with laughters and joy. I didn't have a care in the world at that time.

When my foundation studies ended, I decided to shift to Inti because the group of friends I had were splitting due to the fact that, some were beginning their degree earlier and some were going to other colleges to pursue their degree. Not only that, I wanted to taste the life of Uni elsewhere. Yeap, I'm a curious person and I enjoy experiencing new things. That includes, going to new places, meeting new people. It's exciting. :)

The first 2 years, I met wonderful girls like Annie, Nadia and Zhi Yun. They were the ones who taught me how to take the ktm and the bus to KL. They were the ones who brought me around and taught me how to be independent. When I had problems with my ex, it was them I cried to because they were always there. I also remember the times we would skip some unimportant class just to go to KL to walk around. haha. And also..we never listened to the lecturers in class because we just had so many things to talk about. I'm glad I got to know them. :)

When I started my 3rd year later, I got separated from the girls and I really thought I would remain lonely throughout the final year because everyone seemed to have their own cliques in class. But, there was a girl, her name is Yen. She started talking to me because she said she knew I was lonely. I was so grateful for that. She was the one who would later introduce me to my loving bf. :)

"This is my ji mui Chan Heng" she said. I thought, "Oh ok." And that was it..we became friends. Soon, I got to know the rest of his friends..Boon, Chee Wee, Teck Wei..the rest of the girls in the class..Emery, Jaynee..etc.

They were all so fun-loving and care-free they made me feel that the final year was just a breeze.

Hanging out with them in a group had always been fun because it was always filled with jokes and laughters. When I was with them, I could laugh 'till I couldn't breathe. We went for our "cuti-cuti Malaysia" trips to Genting, Bukit Tinggi, Malacca..we had our plenti-full yumcha sessions, Left for Dead gaming sessions, skipping class for movies sessions, swimming sessions, going for our "own breaks" during classes ..and the list goes on.

It's shocking to know that time flew by that fast and in a blink of an eye, we have graduated...together. :)

I am so happy to be able to graduate with my dear..this is a memory that would be so special to us. Because..Not many would have been able to graduate with their bf/gf. :)

Annie and Zhi Yun..thanks for the plush graduation bear! :)

Me, Yen, Emery and Jaynee had a gift exchange at night because we planned it a week before the graduation. Jaynee bought the flowers, Emery bought the pens, Yen bought the card holders while I bought the handphone straps..haha.

After discussing at Asia Cafe, we went off to Lookout Point to have some drinks and group picture sessions. Yen has the pictures. :)

I guess this marks the official ending to our study-carefree life and the beginning to a whole new chapter in life. Savour the memories we had but do not be afraid to make new ones. Every joy and sorrow we experience will make us better if we look at it at a positive light. Stay positive okay! Troubles may come but remember, it will never last forever. :) And yeah..I know.. working won't be easy, but I am sure that each and everyone of you graduates will be able to succeed in life someday. It doesn't matter if you're a first class, a second class, a third class or a general degree holder. We are all the same. We were students and that's all that mattered.

Ganbatte yo! ;)

CONGRATULATIONS to EVERYONE! :)

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Wednesday, November 4, 20093:04 PM

:Halloween - Eve:

Believe it or not, this is the first time I actually "celebrated" Halloween. Sad, I know. I wanna go treat or treating. Damn Malaysia. =(

My sweetheart was kind enough to invite me along for a celebration with his group of friends in Malacca this year though. Aww. So nice of him. :)

I didn't exactly knew what to wear because I didn't want to over-dress..you know, just in case. haha. Turns out, Melanie is just like me! She likes to dress up! :D

Here's the account of the 2 days 1 night trip @ Malacca :

Everyone met up at USJ2 Shell in the afternoon around 2pm+ before heading to Malacca. The moment we reached Malacca town we headed straight to the chicken rice balls. (duh, it's the Malacca specialty, if you haven't eaten chicken rice balls, you haven't been in Malacca it seems. haha) I never really felt that the chicken rice balls were special though. I mean, it's just rice, rolled up in the shape of a...ball?

After the chicken rice, me and him went for a walk along Jonker Street and we bought a pair of those lighted horns which flickers various colours. Previously we bought a pair of horns from some party shop in Times Square but the lighted one was a lot cuter. Plus, it was only RM3 for 1. So cheapp!!

Wasted around RM10+ for the other pair which was not nice and not cheap. :(

Anyway, I think I gained alot of weight from that day of non-stop eating because just a few hours after that, everyone went for "Satay Celup". It was also my first time eating satay celup. I know I sound very jakun-ish right now.

Satay celup was quite nice..it's something like Lok Lok. The only difference is that..you dip it in boiling satay sauce and it's alot cheaper compared to Lok Lok.

At night, we proceeded to one of his friend's villa at A Famosa. They had a mini swimming pool there and the place was pretty nice despite the fact that we saw a dead frog on the floor and a cockroach running around when we first went in. The place was empty for quite long I suppose. haha.

Kind of lazed around for awhile before changing into the "Halloween costumes". My costume was kinda awful because it wasn't even a costume. My idea was basically just to wear those RM3 horns. That's all. hahaha.

Thank goodness Melanie brought loads of stuff, so she loaned me a white wig she bought from Toys R Us for RM50. It's quite a good price for a wig like that. :)

I was amazed to see all of them actually dressing up like that. Except for my dear who just stuck with the RM3 horns. hahahaha. Jade was very creative with the whole Flinstones theme. I admire her creativity because I don't think I could've come up with that idea. hahaha. In fact, I think everyone was quite creative with their outfits. Look at the pictures below. :)

Let's see if I can remember all their names correctly. :p

There were the flinstones (Jade and Alwin), some grim ripper(Ji shen, I don't know how to spell his name =/), cabaret girl (Melanie), an angel/fairy (Joe Lin), Teh AIS (yes, the one with the packet and a straw. lol :Aifiq), a bedsheet ghost (CJ), ice-hockey player (Matthew), Optimus Prime in a jubah (Azim), Devil (Ting Ting), Samurai(Andy and Ali), Chef (Nigel and Jason) and obviously there is my bf...as himself. X)

All the girlss who were present that night...I like them, they're all very friendly. It's nice knowing them :)

Me and my babeh Chan Heng. The fella didn't want to dress up. So he was just happy with the horns. hahaha. :p

This was a candid shot, but I really like this picture. It's so natural. :)

Oh right, it was also twister night. lol. Throughout the whole game I was just laughing away, as you can see.

I ended up in a very compromising position on top of Ting Ting. And I don't know why they started posing with my ass. hahahaha.

To sum it up, it was an awesome Halloween eve. :)

::Pictures credit to: Melanie and Jade:: Thanks! =D

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Tuesday, October 27, 200910:53 AM

Late post! Thanks to my internet which has been trashy....again. pfft.
I'm getting used to it.

By the way, I just have to warn everybody on the latest release of a movie entitled "NINJA". Just plain "NINJA". Do NOT, I repeat, do NOT mistake it for the movie where Rain is supposed to be in. I felt so conned after watching that brainless, good for nothing movie.

In summary, Ninja is about this white guy who is an orphan, got adopted by the Ninja community and started training as a Ninja. His foe, a very angry Jap guy had high hopes on taking over the Ninja dojo someday but it seems that the white guy was a threat to him. So, obviously he tries to murder that white guy and..got kicked out of the dojo. Typical. Oh, the main story's about the both of them fighting over some "Ninja equipments" and the white guy won. The whole show's sooo corny and un-original. Plus, what's with the white guy acting as some kinda Ninja? It was so awfully WEIRD. Well, that's the whole movie summarised in less than 5 sentences. Just don't watch it.

On the other hand, please do look forward to watching Rain in NINJA ASSASSIN. Don't get it wrong. Rain's movie has the word "ASSASSIN" behind the word "Ninja". I can't wait because I need to get the image of that weirdo white Ninja outta my head. I'm not being a racist, I'm just being real. I mean, it'll be very weird for an Asian to act as the main character in a movie 'bout cowboys/mafias, no?

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Also, last Saturday I had an outing with the girls! Sweet looking Jaynee, Cute Emery and Aunty Yen. hahaha. Just Kidding..it's supposed to be Adorable Yen. :)

It has been such a long time since I last took the KTM to KL that I forgot how it was really like. And well, like always, it still sucked 'cause Malaysian public transports are.....generally sucky.
Jaynee, Emery and me met Yen at Jalan Hang Tuah because Yen wanted to bring us to the Jalan Kenanga. It's the place where most blogshop owners restock their clothes. You'd usually have to buy clothes in bulk at the area. I've been there before a few times. Sadly, last Saturday's fashion didn't suit us at all. It seemed.......aunty-ish. So, we made our way to Times Square instead. It's been some time since I went to Times Square too. I was quite shocked at the amount of shops they have now. Apparently, all those people from Jalan Kenanga have set up their own personal shops at Times Square as well. Obviously, at Times Square you won't have to purchase it in bulk. It's very cheap nonetheless. The downside would be that, you're not allowed to try the clothes. Since, my cupboard's already overflowing with clothes I restrained myself from purchasing any..although there was this dress I liked..alot. :(

However, I did purchase a bag! A very beautiful bag (to me it is). Fell in love with it the moment I saw it. :)
It was a really fun day hanging out with the girls because they're all happy people. Plus, they are NOT fakers. I believe they are genuinely nice people. Nice friends. It's just that, some people are too blinded to see that. And by some people I do mean a person..wait..what's her name again. Shin Yu, I think. I didn't know Shin Yu was so bitchy 'till a friend of mine showed me her blog where she was ratting out almost everyone. Saying that 4 out of 6 people do not deserve the First Class Honours. That's just loser talk. I mean, why can't she be happy for other's success? Also, I feel kinda stupid for standing up for her at one point in time because I thought she was pitiful for being an outcast in the class. I recently found out that she totally hated me from the start. It's funny 'cause I've NEVER talked to her. I guess her brains are just wired in a different way. I'm not gonna comment further because if I do, it would be really really bad. I just want her to realise that in this world, you can't get everything you wish for and you can't be the best at everything. Everyone has their own good and bad attributes. That's just the way life is. No one can be perfect. This is REALITY my dear, not a FANTASY world. Please wake up. You've been dreaming for far too long.

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I've been seeing my darling CH everyday...watching movies, going to beautiful parks for a walk, eating KFC while watching dvds at my house, etc. As long as he's with me, I'm never bored.
I just want to say, I Love You. :)

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Tuesday, October 20, 20096:14 PM

A series of UN-fortunate Events

(and I don't feel like being nice right now)

This post is ALL about suck-ish October and the misfortune(S) it brings me. Ugh, just thinking about it frustrates me.

After getting used to the whole care-free/happy lifestyle I've been living in for the past year or so, in the beautiful month of October, stupid things decided to be-fall into my life. Whoopie (In a not-so happy tone).

First of all, exactly on October 1, my internet became retarded and it lasted for a bout 2 weeks or so. Occasionally when the internet returns I would have approximately 5-10 minutes to get excited while screaming "yay! the internet is back!!" before it just cuts off again, leaving me with mixed emotions(was it frustration? Annoyance? Anger? I don't know. Maybe its just a bit of everything). Well, it happened so often this month that when the internet decided to do its magical act of disappearing again, I would just go "there it goes again" and proceed to go downstairs to watch good 'ol television. Yeap, TV wouldn't let me down (except Astro that is, which goes off when it rains).
Added note: The moment I finished this paragraph, I tried to load Google and it gave me this : "oops! this link appears to be broken" That is just stupid because the web address is obviously CORRECT : I typed "www.google.com".
How........Wonderful. =) [Note that this is a very sarcastic smile]

Next, I would like to proclaim hatred for some certain female species. Yep. Especially to a woman by the name Azlin from LIMA. In one of my previous post I did state that I've been confirmed for a particular position with LIMA after going for an interview with the HR manager, Ray. However, it is Azlin (that whore) who oversees the people who goes into the company. Before this, we were told that LIMA is selecting 20 people. But when Chan Heng started, Kumaran (the agent from People Dynamics) said they were only selecting 10 and would bring people in the company in stages. As in, a few would start in that week and the next week some others would be brought in. However, he still told me that I've been confirmed by Ray. So okay, I WAITED. Chan Heng started first..but guess what he heard while that whore was talking over the phone?

"I WANT MORE DICKS NOT PUSSIES!" and I quote that whore Azlin with no changes in the sentence whatsoever. She is so downright rude and disrespectful. A sexist in everyway and she talks as if she is not a woman herself! Furthermore, Chan Heng said she's like, butt ugly and obviously divorced. It's sad really. So no, I'm not going to work there anymore. Chan Heng quitted as well. It was just not worth it because the job scope kinda sucked plus the pay wasn't that good as well. We totally misjudged the company thinking it could be a good experience. It was a lousy experience altogether. That's what you get for working with a company that has ties with the gov I guess.

Other than that, it's about my future car. Which obviously is one of the most devastating news of all for this month. It is said that the bank loan is normally approved within 3 working days. That's the longest it took everytime my family bought a car. However, some shit happened and it has been almost 2 weeks now. Not only that, the car dealer called up my dad and told him that the company which is selling the car is going through some financial problem or some sort and the owner of the car has gone overseas. This is a very w-t-h (I won't say F*** because I'm trying to keep it PG so that my blog would be suitable for young readers like my sister.) situation indeed. Now my mom is worried that the dealer may swindle or deposit/down payment money. Those cheap basterds (yes I know I'm spelling Bastard incorrectly, I'm doing it on purpose).

Lastly, it's about my police ticket. I haven't gotten any before and they decided to present me one this month of all months.

I just hate October this year.

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Sunday, October 18, 20094:51 PM

Yesterday while me, my mom and sisters were rounding Puchong, we decided to go into this particular restaurant (forgot the name) because it looked good from the outside. In fact, it looked alot like "Beans" from SS15. So we thought, "oh okay, we could try this".

When we sat in the restaurant, there was this unappealing smell all over..but I thought it was okay. Still bearable.

THEN, the waitress came with the menu and told us it was a Vegan Restaurant.."The dishes which has onion and garlic are stated on the menu" (pure vegetarians are not allowed to consume onion and garlic) My second sister was totally hyperventilating because she's a so-called "meat person" and she can't eat without meat. haha.

The truth is, I haven't been in a vegetarian restaurant since I was a kid and as I remembered, vegetarian restaurants used to have good food.

Unluckily for us, the food was............................bad.

The good thing was: I felt so.......healthy. lol.

There was something funny about the name of one of the dish though.

I'm sure all of you know what's "chicken chop".

In that particular restaurant they have something called "FOREST CHOP". Wow, that's a first. I've learned something new. hahaha.

Anyway, I can't stop listening to "Two is Better than One by Boys Like Girls ft. Taylor Swift". I really like the words and the tune of this song. The melody of seems to make me feel more relaxed.

I remember what you wore on the first day

You came into my life and I thought

"Hey, you know, this could be something"

'Cause everything you do and words you say

You know that it all takes my breath away

And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true

That I can't live without you

And maybe two is better than one

There's so much time

To figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face

The way you roll your eyes

The way you taste

You make it hard for breathing

'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away

I think of you and everything's okay

I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true

That I can't live without you

And maybe two is better than one

There's so much time

To figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day

You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Maybe it's true

That I can't live without you

Maybe two is better than one

There's so much time

To figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking

I can't live without you

'Cause, baby, two is better than one

There's so much time

To figure out the rest of my life

But I'll figure it out

When all is said and done

Two is better than one

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Tuesday, October 13, 200910:54 AM

The Continuation..

In the previous post of "Never say Never" I cut it short because SOMEBODY told me he didn't like to read. But now he's saying that he likes to read things concerning him. hahaha. He's always so full of himself. Sigh. =Pp

I shall now rewind the time to a few weeks ago. =)

Few weeks ago..me and him (Please note that when I mention him = none other than my darling Chan Heng. I just don't fancy putting "darling" in every single paragraph because it would sound soo high school. I'll just say that occasionally :)) went for some journey to Wangsa Maju to determine our office. We have never been there for such a long time and we didn't really know the road to the place so we just used our intuition. BUT, at the beginning my mom wanted us to use the Garmin GPS. It soo sucked. Here's what happened :

Me : The GPS is NOT working again!!!
Him: You sure you're doing the correct thing??
Me : Yes, yes I am sure
*silence for a few minutes while I tried to make the GPS work. The damned thing couldn't get a signal, thus, unable to load the map. And yes, I'm not that stupid, the antenna was up plus it was working fine the other day when I used it*
Me : ohhhh!! FINALLY!! The map is loading it's loadingggggg!!
Him: Awesome la =D
Me : Wait a minute.....the GPS said..NOT ENOUGH MEMORY?!?!
Him: ......how many songs did you load inside your GPS today?
Me : Full?
Him: The thing got memory card anot?
Me : ya
Him: .........BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA. oh-my-god. You overloaded the memory with your songs laa. hahahahahaha

(and the laughter continues for quite some time. That bully!)
That was my Bimbo moment. But wait, he had one too. Read on. hahahaha =Pp

A few days later we went for the official interview at Wangsa Maju and this was HIS Bimbo moment. Thank goodness mine happened NOT-in-an-interview. ahahahahaha.
The name of the human resource manager was Ray. On that day, Ray was quite drowsy because he apparently slept only at 5am in the morning due to the amount of work he had to do the night before.

When it was time for my darling to go for his interview, here's what happened:

*opens the door*
Him : Hi, I'm Ray.
Ray : *stoned* You are also Ray?
Him : Oh no, no. I'm Chan Heng.

HAHAHAHA. Omigosh, although it's short, it's the bomb. I couldn't stop laughing when he told me later after the interview.
Right after the interview, we went up to Genting because it was soo nearby. It was nice spending time with him like that for the whole day from morning to night because there's never a moment I felt bored when he's around. =)

Okay, enough of the funny part for now..I would like to express how I feel about the relationship so far.

Some people have been asking me, "eh, last year you keep changing bf, how about this one? Is it for real?"
I wouldn't even have to stop and think before saying, "yes it is. I'm sure."
Then, the reply would be, "how do you know?"
Well..I can never explain it, all I can say is that.. when you feel it you would just know.. somehow. Maybe there's this mechanism in everyone's heart which says "he/she's the one!". When you meet that person, something triggers and you would know. =)

He's the one who never fails to cheer me up.. Even if I thew my tantrums, he would be patient with me. Everything he does, would just make me love him more.
I love how he looks at me when we're not talking, I love how he laughs, how he hugs me and how he sayang me. I feel like a lil girl in his arms..because he makes me feel protected when he's around. =)
When I think about him..I can't help but smile because I'm so thankful for him in my life. He's made my days happier and reminded me that love isn't so bad after all. In fact, it's a wonderful feeling, given that it is with the right person.
I have this t-shirt which says, "I need a Man, not a Boy". From the way he talks when we're serious right down to his actions, I know he is a man who is matured enough to make the right decisions. There's no doubt that he is the man that I need.

"Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
Go for someone who makes you smile,
Because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.
Believe you'll find the one that makes you smile."

I've found him...finally. =)

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Saturday, October 10, 200911:11 AM

...........Oh man, I typed an entire post and the stupid blog didn't save it. $&*#@$^*&#@$

Anyway, as I was saying, my Internet is FINALLY back to normal. Okay, maybe not exactly very very normal but it's getting there. I realised from this whole 10 days, how much I actually needed the internet to keep me away from boredom. I'm thinking how did I ever live without the internet now. haha.

Here's some short updates on the past 10 days.

Sept 30 was my beloved mother's birthday..and although it's very very late, I would still like to wish her Happy Birthday! (again) She's truly the best mother anyone can ever have. I love her sooo much. =)

Yesterday was my second sister's birthday..she's 17 years old now. Seems like it was just yesterday when she was a cute chubby lil toddler, crawling around, my baby sister. [I know I sound like a mom but that's truly how I feel! haha]

Other than that, it's finally confirmed that I'm getting my First Class Hons! I've heard the news when I got to know my unofficial results but somehow I just didn't want to believe it entirely because I felt skeptical since people have always said that it's near impossible to achieve that. I guess I'm just blessed, and it's a miracle. =)

Also, parents have gotten a Honda Jazz for me to drive to work cuz I'm accepted as one of the marketing executive for the LIMA exhibition. For those of you who are clueless like me, about the event, it's actually an Aerospace exhibition which is an international affair and it's held at Langkawi. It seemed like an interesting job with lots of experiences in store. I'm excited. =)

Now for the not-so-good news.
I've gotten my first ticket for double-parking at SS15. That cursed place. ugh. =(

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Wednesday, September 30, 20099:50 AM

-Took this picture on valentines this year but I didn't really see it 'till I looked through my pictures in my external hard drive. haha-

Just some short updates~!
Me and some friends had a BBQ session last weekend..
it was hot, but the food was good. :)
Did you know that bacon and banana is a good combination for bbq-ing?? It's sooooo delicious, I got addicted. I think 80% of the time during the BBQ I was busy eating bacon & banana. haha.

Other than that, I've just been spending time with my lurrvvee..going "kai kai" (walking in the mall/shopping), strolling/chilling at the park, going for desserts, yum cha-ing with friends and all. ;)

p.s.: I like seeing him in formal wear. hahaha. :p

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On another note altogether, I need to complain about my face.
Last Sunday morning I woke up with an itch on my forehead. Like literally my whole forehead and I could see that it was really really red. Not only that, the surface of my skin became quite rough. My forehead, mind you, for the past year or so have been non-problematic and pimple free.
I decided not to touch it, but that itch has spread all over my face, so now I look like this horrible ugly lobster-faced monster. *gasp*
The worse thing is, I don't even know what caused it because it just happened over night.
Could it be something I ate? or the products I'm using on my face? The thing is, I've been using my facial products for quite some time now and it hasn't been giving me any problems at all. So I highly doubt that could be it.
I'm getting so annoyed trying to get rid of it. It's been 4 days and I'm still stuck with this rough skin which I don't even refer to as skin!!
This is worse than acne. Omg. WHYYY ="(

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Friday, September 25, 20094:02 PM

...Never say "Never"..

....that's what my parents used to tell me. Plus, I'm sure many of you heard it a thousand times before.

A few months ago, a friend of mine was jokingly saying, "what if you get together with Chan Heng one day?"

I would shrug and laugh with this reply : "no wayyyy. That would never happen 'cause we are friends!!".

You see, I have this thing about dating friends..I am not used to the concept of dating someone I already consider as a friend. I don't know how to explain it....I'm just complicated like that.

But then again, things aren't always what it seems to be..isn't it? It happened when he started showing that he actually cared for me..

In my mind I kept telling myself, "No. You cannot fall for him. He treats everyone nicely. It's not just you."

I've seen how he treated one of his close girl friend, which is also my friend by the name Yen with such care and they've remained just friends after so many years. He's the type of guy a girl calls, to tell her problems to and he's the type of guy who doesn't fall in love so easily with someone. I mean, he actually waited for a girl for 3 years. Imagine that.

Then, there was this day when I felt quite pissed at him for something. I don't know why I got so pissed I didn't want to talk to him so I basically ignored him the whole night. While we were all sitting down in a group at the restaurant, he became so silent. I've never seen him like that before. However, the egoistic me at the time decided to continue to ignore him and to continue talking to my other friends. I laughed and I played some board games with them, but I kept glancing at him from the corner of my eye. Everytime I saw him looking sad and quiet I felt my heart break a little. I didn't know why. The only thing I could ask myself at that time was, "what's happening?". I thought I've managed to avoid feelings like these after all that has happened. I thought I've chained my heart once and for all. My love life was never a happy one.

When it was time to go home that night..he was supposed to fetch me home, but Rong Jiang offered to give me a ride home instead because he saw how we were being cold to each other the whole night.

By the time I reached home, I made a decision to call him and to tell him that I was sorry for being such an emo bitch. And, for those of you who don't know, I am not a person who calls and apologizes to people. I've got such a high ego, I could compare it with a guy's. It's just that, at that point in time, I just felt like I had to because I couldn't stand seeing him that way. I didn't know why. I was staring at my cell phone for the longest time before I pressed the "dial" button. It rang a few times, and all of a sudden I saw the words "Call Ended" on my screen. That ticked me off so bad, I sent him a few icy cold messages in which he replied that he ended the call because our friends were asking him too many things at the same time and that he would call me back.

When he called the first time, I ended it because I didn't feel like talking to him anymore. But somehow, I could never be too hard on him, so I answered the second time (quite zha dou, I know). We talked for an hour plus that night, all the while, he was making me laugh and soon, I forgot about all the "pissed" emotions I felt earlier. When our conversation ended and I clicked the phone off, I lied on my bed and wondered, what just happened. I knew then, that I have feelings of "like" for him.

Everything just flowed smoothly from there..and from the feelings of "like" I began to fall in love with him.

I love how he is so caring and so understanding. He is unlike any other guy I've ever been with and that makes him special. He is like my best friend whom I can talk to, and be comfortable with. I guess, the most important thing is that..I'm able to be myself while I'm with him. I can show him the sides of me that no one knows. =)

If This Isn't Love

I’m calling his phone up

Just to tell him how much

I really love him ‘cause

His everything I want

He listens to me, he cares for me

So I truly believe

God sent me an angel

Up from above

That’s gonna love me for life

Might as well be perfect only because

It’s the only way I can describe, so

It this isn’t love, tell me what it is

‘Cause I could be dreaming or just plain crazy

It this isn’t love, tell me what it is

‘Cause I never felt like this baby

If this isn’t love

L-O-V-E, what is in me

L-O-V-E, oh if this isn’t love

L-O-V-E, what is in me

L-O-V-E, oh if this isn’t love

I’m selfish ‘cause I don’t

Wanna share him with nobody

Not even those

People that came before me

But see, I never believed

God would send me an angel

Up from above

That’s gonna love me for life

Might as well be perfect only because

It’s the only way I can describe, so

It this isn’t love, tell me what it is

‘Cause I could be dreaming or just plain crazy

It this isn’t love, tell me what it is

‘Cause I never felt like this baby

If this isn’t love

L-O-V-E, what is in me

L-O-V-E, oh if this isn’t love

L-O-V-E, what is in me

L-O-V-E, oh

So if you got real love

Lemme see you put your hands up

See you put your hands up

The kind of love that fits quite like a drug

Lemme see you put your hands up

See you put your hands up

If this isn’t love

‘Cause I know I ain’t crazy

I know I ain’t tripping

I know I ain’t slipping

I know that is love

You see me with my hands up

If you think I’m dreaming

I know I ain’t dreaming

‘Cause this is the reason I love him because

If this isn’t love

It this isn’t love, tell me what it is

‘Cause I could be dreaming or just plain crazy

It this isn’t love, tell me what it is

‘Cause I never felt like this baby

L-O-V-E, what is in me

L-O-V-E, oh if this isn’t love

L-O-V-E, what is in me

L-O-V-E, oh if this isn’t love

Love, L-O-V-E

I Love You.

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Thursday, September 24, 200911:53 AM

I'm wondering how did I manage to type out a blog post every single day in the past few months.
Currently, my mind's kinda not-into blogging. Hmm.

Anyhoo, it's almost the time of the month again. Which means = PMS. How wonderful.
I'm annoyed with my own feelings and behavior these days. I just can't understand how I could be annoyed with certain small issues; so I've decided to google "PMS" (finally) to really read about this thing which women often blame on for almost everything.

It seems that there are more than 200 symptoms for PMS and I think I have these:

Abdominal Bloating (I'd feel fat)
Breast tenderness or swelling (no comment)
Stress or anxiety (IF I'm having exams, due dates, etc)
TROUBLE FALLING ASLEEP (happens everytime)
Headache (Happens during pms and while I'm having my period)
Fatigue (ugh, I hate being fatigue)
ACNE ($*&^@#*&$*&(#$ - long string of very bad words)
Mood Swings (This is the thing I hate most. I'd prefer being happy 24/7. Hate you mood swings!)
Irritability (getting annoyed over the smallest matters)

Conclusion: PMS is a pain in the ass.

However, I will not allow such a thing to fluctuate my emotions. NO! >:(

Note to self: I will be happy and not be emotional for no apparent reason because it's stupid and a mere waste of time and energy.

Smile Regina...SMILLEEEE
Oh gawd, I'm talking to myself.

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